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My name is Nate. It's good to see you. Thanks for being here on this August Sunday. I hope that you've had a good summer as they're winding down. We're winding down our summer series as well called Obscure Heroes. And if this is your first exposure to it, the idea is we kind of know the heavy hitters in the Bible, right? We know some of the main characters. We know the Davids and the Moseses and the Abrahams and the Pauls the John's and Peter. We know those folks. But tucked away in the Bible. Sir, if you could please find your seat. I just always want to do that. Tucked away in the Bible are these folks that we just see for a chapter or two. We just get little snippets or little glimpses into the lives of these folks, but the examples that they leave through their stories are profound. And we wanted to take some time in the summer and focus in on some of these stories. So this morning, we're looking at the story of a woman named Rahab. Rahab, when we meet her, we meet her in Joshua chapter 2. Now, Rahab lived in a city called Jericho. To understand why that's important, what we have to realize is that the people of Israel, God's chosen nation, have come out of Egypt. They've come out of slavery. They've lived in the desert for 40 years, and now they're about to cross over the Jordan River. They're on the east side of this river. They're about to cross over the river and go on a conquest to conquer what we know as the modern day nation, land of Israel. To them, it was the land of Canaan. And Joshua was going to lead his armies over the river and then through the nation to sweep through and take over all the cities for themselves per God's orders. And like good war planners do, they had to go get some intel. So Joshua finds two spies and he sends them into Jericho to go see what they could see and come back and they would come up with a strategy on how to attack this city. So when the spies go into Jericho, they end up in the house of a woman named Rahab. Now Rahab was a prostitute. And I like to think that these men were there not because they were of a weak moral fiber, but because it made sense for people coming in and out of town to spend the night at her house, because this was something that was done a lot. So this would kind of throw people off the scent. It makes sense for some transient businessmen to come in, spend the night there, and then leave the next day without raising too many eyebrows. So I'm giving them the benefit of the doubt. But when we meet Rahab in Joshua chapter 2, one of the first things we learn about her is that she was a prostitute. She was used to this kind of thing. But the men come in and somehow or another, the king of Jericho, the authorities in Jericho, get word that there are some spies in their city. And so they start trying to find them. And then they hear that they're probably in Rahab's house. But Rahab, who has every reason to hand them over to the king, she doesn't need this stress in her life. She doesn't need this drama. I don't know what her life looked like at the time, but I'm sure it had plenty enough drama that she didn't need to be hiding spies from the government. It would have been way easier for her to just let the king in and say they're right there and go get them. But that's not what she does. She actually, we see, she goes up to them. They're sleeping on the roof. And we see in Joshua 2, verse 8, that this is Rahab's response when she encounters God. Before the men lay down, she came up to them on the roof. Verse 9, and she said to the men, I know the Lord has given you the land and that the fear of you has fallen upon us and that all the inhabitants of the land melt away before you. And she goes on. She goes on and she's talking about their fear and she makes a deal. She says, so here's the deal. I'm going to hide you. I'm going to protect you. I'll lie to the king for you. I'll give you an escape route. But I need to know that when your armies come through Jericho and conquer us, that you're going to protect me and my family. I'll make a deal with you. And I love this response from Rahab because what we'll see as we move through her story is that Rahab's response to God was faithful obedience. Rahab's response to God was faithful obedience. Think about it. This is a woman that's presumably grown up in Jericho. We don't know what their religion was, but it was what we would refer to as a pagan religion. She didn't worship the God that we worship. She didn't worship the Hebrew God. This was a land and a time when each civilization and each culture had their own gods, and they would always vie for power with each other. That's why the 10 plagues in Egypt was actually a strategic affront to 10 different gods of Egypt to show the nation of Egypt that the Hebrew God is more powerful than your God. And so if you had any national pride at all, if you had any cultural pride, you would always say that your God was stronger than the other gods. Except when she encounters the Hebrew God and hears of the stories of the Hebrew God and what they're doing and what he's doing for Joshua in his army, she responds in fear. And then that fear produces obedience because she had a choice. She can hand over the spies and do what's easy for her, or she can protect them and take that on. And she chose in faithful obedience to protect them. And I call this obedience to God. And here's what I think is super interesting about this step of obedience that Rahab took. Would we call her a Christian? No. Was she a believer? Was she in? Was she a Hebrew? Was she practicing? Was she following the law and performing the sacrifices and going to temple? Did she know the Torah, the first five books of the Bible? Did she know even who Moses was? Did she know the story of Abraham or Noah? Did she know any of this stuff or any of the things around the religion that she was being obedient to? No. She just knew that God was coming and she wanted to be on the right side of things. So she took the step of obedience that was in front of her, and she helped the spies. I love that response from Rahab. So she tells the spies, I'm going to hide you. I'm going to lower you out of my window because she had, her house was actually in the city walls of Jericho. She says, from your window, then we promise that we will protect you and anybody who is in this house. They say, okay, deal. So she lets him down. Sure enough, King knocks on her door. She gives him the old that away. You know, they went over there and lies to him, which is an interesting thing to know because God counts this to her as righteousness. So sometimes lying is okay. Just so we're clear, there's a hierarchy of things that we're supposed to do to love others. And in this situation, she was supposed to love on the spies and obey God by deceiving the king. So this absolutism of morality doesn't really work sometimes. It's just a useless aside for you. But she lets him down the window. They get away. She sends the king in another direction, and everybody's safe. And then a little while later, we have the famous Battle of Jericho, where God's strategy from on high was to march around the city seven times, which seems, first of all, ineffective, and second of all, tiring. But I've actually gotten the chance to be at Jericho and see the size of it and actually look down in a dig and see the excavation and the layers of the walls. And towards the bottom, there's this one black layer of soot from the walls being burnt down this one time, which is super interesting. And the whole size of Jericho is maybe the size of the parking lot that's across the street. So walking around it seven times in a day isn't unfeasible. It's not like a triumph of the human spirit or anything. So that's what they did. And on the seventh time, the walls fell down, the armies of Joshua swept into Jericho, took over the city, but because the cord was hanging from Rahab's window, they protected her and her family and grafted her into the nation in a way that you'll see in a minute. And I think that Rahab's faith is remarkable. One of the reasons I think it's remarkable, and I don't know how much time you've spent thinking about this, probably not much. I tried to really think through it this week. And I have to make some guesses here, but I think that you'll give me the license and the liberty to make these guesses? What was Rahab's life like? What happened in her life that she ended up as a prostitute? Women in that day, and it goes without saying that it's totally wrong, but women in that day had very little value outside of being a wife. They could not have a profession. They had no opportunity to make money. And so to be on your own as a woman is to have very few options. And so she took the only option that was in front of her. And so what it tells me is she either experienced loss or rejection or both in her life. Maybe she had a husband and he passed and so now she had to fend for herself. Maybe she wanted to be married and she couldn't. Women in that culture very much wanted to be married. They had no way to provide for themselves. They needed to get married. And so it's safe to say that almost every woman in that culture had this innate desire to find a husband. And for whatever reason, she finds herself without one, either through loss or rejection. I wonder what kind of number that would have done on the psyche, on the self-image, on the hope of this woman. More than that, she's a prostitute in ancient Jericho. What was that like? There's no justice system there. If there was, it was nothing like ours. It was a place where might made right. It was a patriarchy. I don't know what she had to do to avoid abuse from some. I don't know what she had to do to gain the protection that she was afforded. I don't know the kinds of awful things that she saw that if we closed our eyes, we would still be seeing. I don't know what that woman's life was like, but I guarantee you it's harder than mine. I guarantee you she saw and experienced things that you can't unsee. I wonder what it would be like for Rahab to sit in the office of a therapist or a counselor. I wonder what layers would have to begin to get peeled back from her about trust that she lost early, about feeling worthless, about feeling shame over who she was. I wonder what it was like when Rahab was being honest to look in the mirror. I think that Rahab was a broken woman. And in that brokenness, when confronted with God, without understanding all the ramifications about it, she chose obedience. And for that, it's amazing, for that, this foreign woman who had the worst job that churches think you could have, she is put in the Bible dozens of times. God shares her story throughout the Old Testament. She's mentioned again and again. And she shows up two places that I know of in the New Testament. And in the New Testament, she shows up in one of the most famous chapters in the Bible, Hebrews chapter 11. We're going to finish the series with looking at Hebrews chapter 11. Some people call it the hall of faith. The book of Hebrews is easily the most beautifully written book in the New Testament. We don't know who the author was, but it's so eloquent and good that we go, that probably is not Paul because we've read a lot of his books. It has the highest view of Christ, of Christology in the New Testament. It really holds him up as the high priest and the sacrifice and the Messiah once and for all. It's a beautiful book and absolutely worth delving into. And in chapter 11, the author wants to make the point of how important faith is, how impactful faith can be. And so the author goes through the heroes of the Old Testament and says, you know, by faith Noah built the ark, and by faith Abraham was willing to sacrifice Isaac, and by faith Noah or Moses led them through the desert. And he goes on and on and on until he gets to Rahab, who by faith protected the spies in Jericho. And here this foreign broken prostitute is laid right next to these Jewish men who are heroes of the faith. And God says, the things that they did to me are the same. The things that they did to me have the same faith, have the same obedience, have the same heart. And she's held up as a hero of the faith alongside with these men who made the choices that they made. And God says they're equal because she responded to God with faithful obedience. That's remarkable to me. It's remarkable to me because do you know how concerned God is with the Jewish lineage in the Old Testament? He tells them over and over and over again, do not intermarry. When you move into this nation, do not take wives or husbands from the surrounding cultures. And he even punishes them for doing it sometimes. He'll ostracize them for doing it, but yet here in Rahab, he's grafted in someone into his people, into his family, who is a foreign woman of ill repute. And it goes to show us that God was never concerned with protecting the genetics of his people. He was always concerned with protecting the faith. He doesn't care about what our makeup is or what we look like or how we were born. He cares about our faith as we respond to him. And so because Rahab responded with faith, he grafts her into his family. But to me, as I researched this, I knew that Rahab was in Hebrews chapter 11, so I turned to that and I read through that and kind of let that soak in. But I also know that she shows up in one of the most boring chapters in the Bible, Matthew chapter 1. Matthew chapter 1 is the begats. It's so-and-so had so-and-so had so-and-so had so-and-so had so-and-so all the way down. It's a whole chapter. It's really fun to read it out loud and see how good you do at pronouncing the names. It's fun if you're like a huge Bible nerd like me. It's like a great time. Let's sit around with our friends and pronounce Bible names. But you can go through that, and it's just super boring, man. It's hard to read. Like if that one shows up on your quiet time that day, you're going to fold it up and be like, God, I got nothing. I'm so sorry. There's actually a great sermon there, and I want to do it one day, but I have to get my ego out of the way because I really want to say that I've done a sermon out of Matthew chapter 1. But there's really a great sermon there. One day I'll share it with you. But Rahab shows up there too. And we can put it up on the screen. This is where she shows up. I thought it was remarkable as I read this. It says that she married a man named Salmon, and together they had a son named Boaz. And Boaz with Ruth had a son named Obed, and Obed had a son named Jesse,. There's a whole lot going on there. Now, I'm going to make some guesses about Rahab if you'll give me the chance to do this. Rahab married a man named Salmon. Maybe the Jews pronounced it Salmon, but I can't bring myself to do it. She married a man named Salmon. Salmon was from the line of Abraham. Salmon took great pride in his forefathers. He had to have. The whole line of Abraham did. It would have been a huge deal for him to marry a foreign woman who used to be a prostitute. So my guess about Rahab is, after taking that initial step of obedience when she encountered God, is that once she got grafted into the Hebrew culture and the Hebrew faith, and she began to look around, and she began to step into synagogue where she would find community, and she began to adopt the values of the people around her, that she continued to respond to God and his word, and that she grafted herself into the faith, and that she continued to take steps of obedience. I doubt very seriously that after the battle of Jericho, Rahab ever returned to her previous profession. I think God got a hold of her and moved in that way. Can I tell you the main reason I believe that? There's this old saying, I don't know if you guys have heard it before, but you can't fake good kids. When there's a group of brothers and sisters coming out of a house and they're spiritually strong and they love God and they have good character and they're great folks, you have to, whether you like them or not, give credit to their parents. You have to look at their parents and go, I don't know what they were doing, but it was good. You can't fake good kids. Now, sometimes kids can come out of messes and become really great humans, but that's not typically how that story goes. Usually, if you have a great kid, you can find some great parents. Rahab and Salmon had a great kid. Their kid was a guy named Boaz. Boaz stands out in the Old Testament as an example of what the Messiah is going to look like. You understand this? There's a girl named Ruth. She was a Moabite woman who had no options and no hope. She wasn't very different than, I guess it was her grandmother Rahab. Or was it mother-in-law? Is that how that works? I don't know. I should have planned this part of the sermon. She wasn't very much different than her. And she comes in. She's hopeless, she's a beggar, taking what she can at the corners of fields. Boaz says, we need to protect her, nobody lay a hand on her. And then going to look like when he gets here in the New Testament. And that's Rahab's kid. And I don't think that he comes from that home with those values if Rahab doesn't continue to respond to God in faithful obedience. And Ruth and Boaz have Obed, who has Jesse, who has David. Because of her faithful obedience, God didn't just pluck her out of the life that she was living and give her a new life. He didn't just put her on the pages of Hebrews thousands of years later to be displayed for all of time with an equivalency to all the other people of faith who had preceded her. He wrote her into the genetics of his son and used her to bring about two pictures of his son in David and in Boaz. God had an incredible story written for Rahab. And so as I look at her story, and I think about this woman in Jericho who must have felt hopeless and broken, and what God saw in her, and why we even get to see the story of Rahab in the Bible. What I see is that God made beauty out of her brokenness. God made beauty out of her brokenness. I picture Rahab as this vase or a bowl or a vessel that's just been shattered on the ground. I wanted to bring in like a clay pot and shatter it, but that would have been dangerous for like Holly and other people around me. So I had no way to do that. But that's how I picture Rahab, just broken and shattered on the floor. Irrevocably damaged. And in different ways trying to grab pieces of her life and put them back together in a way that feels whole, in a way that feels healthy, in a way that can at least look from the outside in like it's beautiful. I imagine her trying to assemble the pieces of her own life, and I think many of us can relate to this. I think many of us are broken. Listen, if we're being honest, we all are. We're all broken. And I don't mean that in some dramatic way. Some of us are walking through really difficult things. Some of us have walked through incredibly difficult things, and it doesn't feel like our life is ever going to be the same. Some of us can relate to the brokenness of Rahab, just sitting amidst your life feeling like it is in shatters. Some of us remember that and have pieced things back together. Some of us, maybe we're not broken into a thousand pieces, but it's a couple. We all struggle with value. We all struggle with feeling good enough. We all struggle with unselfishly loving others. We are all, in our own ways, broken. And so as I thought about Rahab and her brokenness, and us and ours, I wanted to find a picture of something beautiful being made from something that's broken. So I did what any good pastor does and I googled things. And I found the perfect picture. I want to show you guys this bowl. That bowl is an example of the Japanese art of kintsugi. That's how you know I Googled it. I don't know what that is, man. I just started learning about this this week. That's an example of the Japanese art of kintsugi. And what kintsugi is, is to take something that's broken and fashion it back together in a way that is beautiful. And what they would normally do, what you normally try to do when your bowl was broken is you try to piece it back together so that nobody would ever know it was broken, so that when you used it as a dinner party, people wouldn't know that you had dropped it on the floor once and no one would ever know that it had been broken before. But Kintsugi says, no, we're not going to do that. We're actually going to make the brokenness beautiful. We're going to fill the cracks with gold. And we're not going to try to hide the past from anybody. And in doing this, it actually becomes more beautiful than it was before. And I think that this is a picture of what God does with us. God took Rahab, this broken prostitute from Jericho, and wrote her into his family story. So that when we look at her story now, when we look through Matthew now, when we look at those names, married to Salmon and then had Boaz and Obed and Jesse and David and on down all the way to Jesus, we see the bowl. We see the thing that God pieced back together. We see the brokenness and all of its beauty. And God doesn't attempt to hide it. He doesn't say that there was a woman of faith from Jericho. He tells us who she was. He doesn't attempt to hide her faults. He makes them beautiful. And I want us to know this morning that if you feel broken, whether it's completely shattered or just missing a couple pieces, if you've been scrambling to kind of try to fix your life and put it back together in a way that makes sense, in a way that feels whole, in a way that feels beautiful, in a way that gives you meaning, I want you to know that God is doing that for you. And that you don't have to hide those cracks. And you don't have to pretend like you were never broken. And you don't have to pretend like you were always right. Because God is making something beautiful out of you. And all we have to do is respond with faithful obedience. Now some of you might not believe me. Some of you might think I've heard stuff like this before. I've got too much sin. I've got too much stuff. God's not going to use me. He's not writing me into his family tree. He doesn't have any big grand plans for me. I guarantee you, if you went to Rahab a month before those spies hit out at her house, and you said, hey, Rahab, you want to know something cool? The Hebrew God that you're scared of, he's going to use you. He's going to set you up for all of history on par with all the heroes who have preceded you. He's going to write you into his family tree. And he is making beauty out of your brokenness. She would have told you you were crazy. She would have sat right where you are, thinking right what you're thinking. Not me. Not possible. That's silly. Here's what I want you to know. When God looked at Rahab, he didn't see what she was. He saw what he was going to make her into. When God looked at Rahab, he didn't see what she was. He didn't see a broken prostitute in Jericho living a hopeless life. He saw the great, great grandmother of King David. He saw the mom that he was going to entrust to raise Boaz. He saw somebody that he was going to write into his own son's family tree. When God looked at Rahab, he did not see what she saw. He saw what he was going to create. And I want you to know that God looks at you with those same eyes. And all Rahab did was respond with the next step of obedience. She didn't understand all the things. She didn't get all the religion. She didn't know where it was going to go. She didn't understand the Bible. She couldn't quote to you verses. She didn't even know what theology was. She wasn't even a Christian. She just took the first step of obedience. And God began to craft beauty out of her brokenness. And I want you to know this morning that God wants to make something beautiful out of you. Not just in the way that he removed Rahab from her life immediately, but as he wrote a beautiful story about her for generations to come. God has beauty that he's creating you into. You have no idea who your children will come in contact with. You have no idea what kind of grandchildren they're going to have. But God sees them already. And he's fashioning you into that beauty. And all we have to do is to continue, like Rahab, to respond with faithful obedience. And I believe that God will make beauty out of our brokenness as well. Let's pray. Father, thank you so much for the story of Rahab. Thank you for including people like that in your Bible. God, we love to learn about David and Moses and these men who were leaders. But God, sometimes that feels so far away from us. We thank you for regular people that you used in extraordinary ways. Father, if we are broken, I just pray that we would trust you to restore us and to make beauty out of that. Father, I pray that we, me, maybe most of all, would see what you see when we look at ourselves. We thank you that you don't see us now as we are, but you see us as what you want to make us into. And I just pray for us that you would give us the courage and the faith to take the next step of obedience as you make beauty out of the things in our life that are broken. It's in your son's name we ask these things. Amen.

This is the, I don't know, the fourth or fifth part of our series called Obscure Heroes. We've been looking at people that exist in kind of the nooks and crannies of the Bible. We all know of some of the main characters, some of the heavy hitters, some of the more prominent players in the Bible that we see, some of the more prominent people through history. One of them is David. We know King David, right? We've heard of him, and we actually spent a couple summers ago, my first summer here, we went through the life of David for 11 weeks. It was one of the more fun series I've ever gotten to do. And we know about Moses, we know about Paul, we know about Abraham, but there's other people tucked away in some of the corners of the Bible that give us incredible examples. And their stories are in there for good reasons. And so this week, the hero that we're looking at is actually my namesake, Nathan the prophet. I double-checked with my parents. I was named after Nathan. Just so you know, the name Nathan means gift from God. So I'm just throwing that out there. But if my aunts and uncles taught me anything at Christmases growing up, it's that not all gifts are good. So you guys can just figure out if I'm good or not. But we're looking at Nathan in a conversation that he has with David in 2 Samuel chapter 12. So if you have a Bible, you can turn there. If you don't, there's one in the seat in front of you, and we'll be looking through that story. To understand what's going on with the conversation with Nathan and David, we have to know what David did. We have to know what's leading into this moment. David was the king of Israel. He was the second king of Israel. The first king was a guy named Saul, but God said some terrible words. He said, I regret making Saul king. And he took the kingdom away from Saul, and he handed it to David. And David, God said himself, was a man after God's own heart. We know about David. There's prophecies that when the Messiah comes, Jesus, that one day he's going to sit on the throne of David. The flag that flies over Israel now bears the star of David. He's the greatest king that Israel has ever seen. But David's human. And like a lot of us, like all of us, he messed up. And he had a lot of mess ups over the years, but this was the worst one, and God in his sovereignty chose to chronicle it in the Bible so that we could see it. So David had been king for a little while, and it says that it was in the spring when kings are off to war. And a lot of people like to make the point that David was in a place that he shouldn't be. Whatever was going on, he probably should have been on the battlefield with his men, leading them into war. And instead, he decided he was going to sit this season out, and he stayed at home. Maybe he was holding out for more money, I'm not sure. But he stayed back at the palace while his men are off to war. And one day, he decides to go out on the rooftop in the evening. And from what I understand, I've done a little bit of research about this, from what I understand, that was kind of like bath time in the ancient world, and that the baths were on the roof, and that it was kind of common practice to not go out there. If you could see on other people's roofs, kind of give people their privacy or whatever. And David chose to go out on his roof to see what he could see. And he knew very well what he could see. There's a woman named Bathsheba who lived next door to him apparently, and he saw her bathing on the roof. Now Bathsheba was the wife of a guy named Uriah the Hittite. Uriah was a bad dude. I don't know the rank, but Uriah is what is called in the Bible one of David's mighty men. Uriah was part of David's SEAL Team 6. He was a bad joker. And this means that David had fought many wars with him, many battles with him. I would be willing to bet that David and Uriah knew each other personally. You don't live next door to the king if he doesn't know who you are, especially if you're in his army. And Bathsheba was married to Uriah, but David was the king. And we know what men in power do. Often, when they're not being responsible, they take what they want. And he wanted Bathsheba. So he sent, he told the guys that worked for him, I don't know, go over there and get Bathsheba for me. Brought Bathsheba over to his quarters, and then he did what men like that do, and they slept together. And he sends her home. Well, word gets back to David somehow. We don't know how. Maybe they're talking. I don't know. Word gets back to David that Bathsheba is pregnant. And so David, you can just see the wheels turning. And it's so human to see this part of David. The actions that he takes, you can see the wheels turning in his head. Oh, shoot. She's pregnant. I have to cover this up. People can't find out about this. I have to make sure this doesn't get out. Because David, man, he's writing psalms. He's singing songs to the Lord. He plays the harp sometimes. He's a spiritual guy. Part of his leadership is established on his moral purity, his moral excellence. So he can't let word get out that behind the scenes he's not what he seems he is. So he starts scrambling, how am I going to cover this up and make Uriah not mad at me? So he hatches a plane and says, I know. He calls Uriah back from the front lines, back from the battlefield. He welcomes him in and he gives him this speech about how great he is and I just value you so much. And because I value you so much, because you're such a loyal servant, I wanted to just give you a night with your, resting at home with your wife, enjoy yourself. We'll send you out to bat on the next day. Very clear what he wants to have happen there. Wants Uriah to go in, spend the night with Bathsheba, leave the next day, and in nine months he thinks that's his kid. The problem is Uriah was so, he had so much integrity that he said, I cannot in good conscience sleep under a roof in a soft bed while my men are on the battlefield sleeping under the stars. So thank you, David. I appreciate this means so much to me, but I'm going to sleep outside. And he slept on the front stoop of his house. So the whole neighborhood knew. Uriah didn't go in there. He didn't see Bathsheba. And then he's about to head back to the front lines the next day. And the wheels turn with David again. He's like, okay, well, plan B. So he writes a letter to his general, Joab, seals it, gives it to Uriah to deliver to Joab. Uriah is so loyal that David didn't even think that he might peek in there to see what this letter said, because if he did, things would have changed. The letter told Joab, tomorrow in battle against the Philistines, I want you to put Uriah in the front lines, which was not typical of the mighty men. You put meat shields in the front lines. You put new people there. You don't put Uriah there, okay? He waits and he cleans up the mess. But he put them in the front lines. He says, then I want you to advance into the Philistine army. And when you give your signal, I want you to withdraw so that they surround him and kill him. Joab was a good soldier. He was a good general. He was trusted by David. So the next day, that's what they did. The army advanced with Uriah in the center, and then they withdrew. I would love to have seen Uriah. I bet Uriah fought the fight, man. But they withdrew, and they murdered him on King David's instruction. When news of Uriah's death gets back to Jerusalem, David, finishing out the plan, totally despicably, plays the part of the grieving king and the magnanimous husband and says, Bathsheba, you poor widow that has no one to provide for you. I will care for you. I will make you my wife, presumably in honor of my friend Uriah. And the sin is covered over. Now, that is a despicable thing that David did. And maybe a month's time, a couple weeks' time, David became a lying, thieving, adulterous murderer. One of, I think, the worst sins recorded in the Bible. And then he covers over it. And that's it. And I would have to imagine, I don't know for sure, I don't know this for sure, okay? This is just, sometimes I walk over here when I'm just making wild guesses and I have nothing to base this on. So pretend I'm talking from right here. David, he wrote most of the Psalms. I would be willing to bet in the time between he sinned with Bathsheba and the time to the story we're about to cover that he didn't do muchm writing. I would be willing to bet he felt pretty distant from his God during that time. I would be willing to bet he woke up most days thinking about how profoundly that act had changed his life, trying to get over it, trying to find a way to look himself in the mirror. I can't imagine how heavily that weighed on him. Maybe it didn't. And if that's the case, I can't imagine all the other stuff he had to do up to that moment to get a conscience that wasn't seared by that, or hurt by that, rather. But in Samuel 12, we see a conversation that Nathan has with David about this sin. Nathan was a prophet. Prophets, we understand in the Old Testament, they're not charged with telling the future. That's a very small percentage of what they do. When we think prophet, we think somebody that tells us what's going to happen at the end of times. And really, a prophet is someone with their ear to God and their mouth to the people. They're listening to God, and then they're telling the truth to the people even when it's hard, and that's what Nathan had to do. He was tasked by God to go and confront David about his sin. So he goes into David humbly, and he tells him a story. He says, David, in your kingdom, there's a rich man. He's got a ton of sheep on a ton of hills. He's got everything he could possibly want. His neighbor was poor. His family had one sheep. And because they only had one sheep, they couldn't bring themselves to slaughter it. It actually became like the family pet. They would bring it in and use it for milk and use it for wool, and they would feed it from their own table. They loved this sheep like a family member. And one day, an unexpected visitor came to see the rich man. And it's important that we understand that in this culture, hospitality is a huge deal. Someone comes to your house, you cook some stuff, you get it ready, like you show them a good time. You want to be hospitable. So it is incumbent upon the rich man to feed his guests. And the rich man, for whatever reason, he's cheap, he must have drove a Nissan Leaf, he decides to go next door and take his neighbor's lamb and murder it and feed that to their guests. And then Nathan says, what should be done to this man? And Scripture tells us in 2 Samuel 12 that it says that David was enraged. And he says, this man surely deserves to die. He should pay back what he took fourfold. And Nathan says, that's interesting, David, because that man is you and the poor man is Uriah, and that's what you did. And then he proceeds to detail to David from God exactly what the punishment for this action is going to be, including losing the child that is a result of this sin. And David responds, and he could have responded in a bunch of different ways. He could have said, get out of here. He could have had Nathan killed. He could have covered it up again. He could have been rebellious. He could have been defiant. But David says, I have sinned against the Lord. And he immediately repents. Now, as a side note, I've long thought that what made David a man after God's own heart is not the lack of sin in his life, is not the perfect moral life that he lived, but it's his repentance and sorrow in the face of sin. Because he went back to Psalm writing after this, most pointedly Psalm 52 as a result of this sin. And we see his brokenness there. And I think that's why David was a man after God's own heart. But I want us to understand as Nathan goes in and confronts David exactly what's at stake when he does this. Think about if you would do this. If you're the prophet in ancient Israel and the king has sinned in this way and God has tasked you with being the one that confronts him about it. Because you're not the only one that knows. All the servants that were around that day, they know. They know good and well what happened. They absolutely know what's going on. But none of them told David, did they? None of them for a second told David, hey, but you probably don't want to do that. Hey, David, wait. You can't do that to Uriah. David, don't send that letter to Joab. They could have, but they didn't. And we can call them cowards for not doing it, but maybe we should call them smart because they can get killed for saying something like that. This is the king, man. There's not a justice system. He's the justice system. I would love to be there when God tells Nathan, hey, I need you to go do this thing. If I were that Nathan, I'd be like, you got to find another guy, man. That does not sound like a good prospect. He could lose his life for this. At the very least, he could lose his position. Think about it. This is his career. This is what he does. This is the empire that he's built. He is so good. I mean, from a human perspective, he's so good at being a prophet, at being a spiritual leader, that he has risen above all the other spiritual leaders in a very spiritual nation to be the advisor to the king, to be the prophet that's allowed in Israel, in Jerusalem, into the palace. He's the guy. And to do this, at the very least, if it doesn't throw away his life, it throws away his career. He might have nothing after this. And I've even thought if I were Nathan, I could make a pretty good argument to justify not doing this. Right? How hard is that? Wouldn't you just have to say, well, you know, I mean, if you had friends around and you say, hey, I felt like God's asking me to do this. I don't know what I should do. Couldn't you convince your friends if you said, listen, my concern is I'm happy to do it. I'm happy to go confront David. But my concern is if I do that, he's going to shut me out. He's not going to listen to me anymore. David doesn't have any other spiritual voices in his life. I'm his pastor. I'm his spiritual leader. He doesn't have anybody else in his life that he's listening to, and he's in a bad place right now. He needs people in his life influencing him towards God. And if I go in and I say something, he's going to shut me out and push me away, and there's not going to be anybody influencing David, and he's just going to run amok with whatever he wants to do. So it is better for the kingdom if I keep my mouth shut and maintain my influence with David? Who's going to tell me I'm wrong? But Nathan doesn't do any of that. He hears the instruction from the Lord, and he goes in, and he confronts him. And he did it. He had to have done it believing this is going to cost him his position. It could cost him his life. It's going to cost him his influence. It's going to cost him everything that he has with David. It's going to cost him his friendship with David and all the perks that come along with it. But what I think is remarkable about Nathan, and the reason that he's the hero today, is that Nathan was somebody who decided that he loved David more than he loved David's friendship. Nathan was someone who had decided that he loved David more than he loved David's friendship. He cared so much for David that he could not bear to see him go down this path. That he loved him enough to jerk him out of it, to hold a mirror up to himself and say, dude, this is you. You've got to stop it. Knowing full well this could cost him his friendship. He loved David more than he loved David's friendship. The easy application for us is that we need to be like Nathan. The people that are in our life that we love and care about, we need to love them more than we love our friendship with them. We need to be willing to say the hard things to them if it's the right thing, even if we don't know what it's going to cost us. And for some of us, this is the right application today. Some of us hate confrontation. Some of you would rather peel your skin off of your body and run away from that lump on the ground than actually confront your friend about sin in their life. That's a super difficult thing. And so for some of us today, we need the application of, man, you need to be like Nathan. We need to love the people in our life more than we love our friendship with them. For some of us, that's a very good application. But I think that there's a better application today. I think the better application is that we need to invite Nathans into our life. Not just like me for lunch and golf, but we need to actually invite Nathans into our life to hold us accountable for things. People who embody the verse. It's in Proverbs. Profuse are the kisses of an enemy. Faithful are the wounds of a friend. Our friends, the people who really love you, are willing to hurt you when it's the right thing. We need people in our lives who are willing to hurt us when it's the right thing. Do you know who wrote that verse, by the way? Solomon. Do you know Bathsheba was his mother? That his older sibling died as a result of his father's sin? That his spiritual heritage was a result of Nathan having the guts to go and confront his dad? And then years later, Solomon writes, faithful are the wounds of a friend. You don't think that carries some special impact? And here's why we need Nathans in our life. Nathans are life-changing. People who confront us, who are willing to tell us the truth, who are willing to love us more than they love their friendship with us, they change our lives. I remember when I was 20 or 21 years old, I worked at a summer camp called Look Up Lodge in Travelers Rest, South Carolina. There was a camp director there. He's still there named Greg Boone. Greg is to this day one of the most formative spiritual influences I have in my life. I saw him when I was 17 years old as a camper in the summer that changed my life. I walked in. I sat down. I'd heard things about him. I didn't know who this guy was. He walks out on the stage barefoot. That was his thing. It's Traveler's Rest, South Carolina, man. You can do what you want. So he walks out on the stage barefoot, and I still remember the first words that came out of his mouth over 20 years ago. And so when I had an opportunity to go on staff there, I wanted to work for that guy. I wanted to learn from him. I wanted to be around him. What he thought of me and my still relatively adolescent brain was hugely important to me. And it was the second summer that I was working there, learning from Greg and some of the other people. And time was tight during the summer. You worked 11 weeks. You didn't get any time off. When you got time off, it was like 24 or 36 hours, and you had to be back by a certain time for the meeting because we were kicking off camp. It was really serious, and that's fine. That's the way it should have been. But I had a little girlfriend running around in Charlotte that I wanted to go see, right? And so we get one of these windows where we get some time, and I'm like, I'm out of here. I'm going to go to Charlotte. I'm going to go see somebody. And I went over there, and we hung out. And the next day, I had to come back, and I had to be back at camp at 1030. I still remember. And I was rolling in late. It was like 1045, 11 o'clock. And I come walking into camp. I come walking into the meeting. I'm in the back of the room. Everybody's turning around, seeing me. They're kind of snickering. I'm kind of grinning like, you know, sit down. No big deal. It was a dumb meeting anyways. It was the same thing every week. Like, I get the drill. I've been doing this for two summers. I sit down. We kind of giggle. Meeting picks back up. Whatever. So then at the end of the meeting, I'm leaving, and I hear Greg say, hey, Nate, let me talk to you for a minute. Shoot. And I know the song and dance, right? Like, getting in trouble is not a new thing for me. So I'm like, I know the drill. Like, I'm really sorry. I was late. I shouldn't have been late. You're right. I'm the worst. Like, I know. I'm sorry. You're right. Like, I'm wrong. You're smart. I'm stupid. I get it. My bad. Like, I get it. I know how to do this. And I was ready for that. But he sits me down, and he says, Nate, let me ask you a question. If before this weekend, I would have gone around to all the staff members, there's about 20 of us, and said, hey, somebody's probably going to be late to our Monday meeting. Who do you think it's going to be? He said, how many staff members would have said you? And I said, I mean, probably all of them. He said, yeah. And you know that about yourself. He said, listen to me, son. You don't start taking things seriously and taking your ministry seriously and taking yourself seriously, you're never going to amount to anything. You're probably going to get hired by some church because they'll like you, but you're just going to bounce around from place to place and you're never going to make an impact for the kingdom. You need to get it together. Understand? And I said, yes, sir. And I went up to our dorm and cried for 45 minutes. It broke me down, man. It was hard to hear. But I remember it verbatim 20 years later. The conversation changed my life. It changed how I thought about things. Because Greg loved me enough to tell me the truth about myself. And it hurt. At the end of the summer, we didn't leave it there. We had a nice make-up conversation. But he meant what he said, and he was right. Nathans change our life. It's one of the reasons I've always said that we changed our mission statement to connecting people to Jesus and connecting people to people. And I always say when I'm talking about being connected to people, that we need people in our life who love us, who love Jesus, and who have permission to tell us the truth about ourselves. I think we all need that. And if you've been here for any time, you've heard me say that. We need people in our life who love us, who love Jesus, and who tell us the truth about ourselves. Have permission. We've invited them in to do this. Because if somebody loves us and loves Jesus, we might not have invited them in to call us out on our sin. And that's not for everybody to do, okay? That's a relational thing that's earned. If I don't know you very well and you come up to me after the service and be like, you know, I'm glad you preached that sermon. I've got a couple things I've noticed about you. You can keep it, okay? That's an earned thing. That's a relational thing. So we need permission. Now, if they love you and they have permission, but they don't love Jesus, I'm not saying that they're bad people, that their advice wouldn't even be good. But what I am saying is, if their advice isn't godly, biblical advice that's going to line up with God's priorities for you in your life, then it's not the best advice possible. So they need to love Jesus. And if they just love Jesus and love permission but don't love you, maybe give it a minute, all right? Let them come around and invite them in. We have to do those things. And we have to give people permission to do this. And the way that David responded, he gave Nathan permission. He responded by saying, I have sinned against the Lord. But what if David had nobody in his life that could have gone to him? What if nobody had permission to say anything to David? I thought as I went through the story, what would have happened if nobody ever said anything to him? And I think one of the things that would have happened clearly is that David would have been emboldened in his sin. He would have been callous to the Lord. He would have said, I got away with this. I can get away with whatever I want. And then there goes the ball steamrolling down the hill, right? But I think more importantly is, David, if I'm right about my guess that he wasn't doing much psalm writing right after this sin, I think David would have existed and lived his life with this idea that there was a wedge driven between him and God and that he could no longer be used by God because he had profoundly disappointed him and God would never care to see him used again. I think he would have carried around this guilt that went unresolved, assuming that God wanted nothing to do with him. And Nathan actually fixes this. I love this verse. It's towards the middle of the chapter, verse 13. After Nathan has detailed all these things, he tells him a little parable about the owners of the sheep, and David says he should die, and he said, that's you, and here's your punishment. After all those things, and this is what's said, David said to Nathan, I have sinned against the Lord. And Nathan said to David, this is great. David is a heap. He's a mess. He is at the height of shame in his life. Nathan the prophet is a representative of God that came to convict him about the wrong thing that he did. And as soon as David repents and says, I have sinned against the Lord, Nathan says, the Lord also has put away your sin. You shall not die. David says, I have sinned against the Lord. And Nathan says, you have. And you need to know that you're forgiven for it. If Nathan doesn't confront David, David never finds out that he's forgiven. And he walks with this sin for the rest of his life without knowing that he's forgiven for what he did. Nathan says, nevertheless, what you did was abhorrent to the Lord, but listen, it was a terrible thing, but you need to know that you're forgiven. And if Nathan never arrives in David's life, I'm not sure that he ever finds that out. The other thing is I thought more about this and inviting Nathans into our life is that we don't just need to invite people who love Jesus and who love us and have permission to tell us the truth. I think a crucial part of this, I want to amend that statement, is not only do we need people with permission, but also with access. Right? It's great to just throw out to your buddies, hey dude, listen, I know that you love me, I know that you love Jesus. Or your girlfriends, I know you love me, I know you love Jesus. If you see anything in my life that I need to fix, you have full permission to tell me the truth. I want to know about those things. Help me see my blind spots. It's one thing to say that. It's another thing to give people access so that they can actually do it. I had somebody one time, we went out to lunch together and he said, hey dude, listen, you're my pastor and I've just been thinking about something. Sometimes in meetings at my workplace, I get a little bit of an attitude. I have a tendency to kind of be mean to people. Sometimes I can steamroll folks. Sometimes I'll kind of say stuff that I regret. And that's really not who I want to be. That's not the witness that I want to have. So can I just, when I'm in these meetings, if I feel that coming on, can I just text you just a word or a phrase? And will you pray for me in those moments I said, man, I'd love to. That's great that God's brought you there. They came to somebody who loved them, who cared about them, who loved Jesus, and they gave me permission to say, hey, listen, I'm praying for you. How's that going? You know what they didn't give me? Access. You know how many texts I got from that guy about that? None. What's it matter? Who cares that we had that conversation? If he never texts me, how can I help? If we don't invite people in and give them access, how can they really speak into our lives with any truth? We need to invite people in to have access. You want to talk about access? How about we send each other screenshots of our screen time at the end of days? How about we start sharing locations with people if we really want to take this seriously? Because here's what I know. David was a good dude. David was a good man. David would have been an elder in any church that he went to. He would have been respected in any group of people that he spent his life with. Everybody that knew David would have looked up to him as a spiritual leader, as a dude with his head screwed on straight. He was the guy in church that when you dealt with your own crap, you'd look at David and be like, maybe someday I could be like him. David messed up. We don't invite people into our lives and give them access and permission because we're doing good. We invite them into our lives and give them access and permission because we know that what was in David is in us. One of the things I always say when I see the sin of other people is I'm two bad weeks away from that. And I think that's generous. What if David had given Nathan access? What if Nathan was like in the palace? What if he had so much access that he was around David all the time as a spiritual advisor and Nathan caught wind that Bathsheba had been invited over and he was able to duck his head into the chambers and be like, David, you good? Like, you just checking up on her because her husband's at war? Like, what's going on, buddy? Mind if I sit in here while you talk to her? Maybe I can bring her some comfort too if that's what you're doing. Maybe we can just do this together, keep everything above board. If Nathan had had access to David, this would have never happened. If people have permission and access for us at our best, then when we have those days and weeks and months and sometimes years when we're not at our best, they can be around us making sure, acting as boundaries, making sure that we don't get to our worst. I hope that if you need some Nathans, that you'll have the courage to ask them. I hope that if some of us are caught up in a sin that is our worst, that we'll have the courage to invite people into that. I have never once, not once, not with me personally, not with people sharing things with me, not hearing stories of other people sharing with others. Heard a story of someone opening up about a sin in their life and not be met with grace and love and kindness. Have the courage to do it. We need Nathans in our life. We need people who love us and who love Jesus and who have permission and access. We don't need them for the good times. We need them for when we're not so strong. And if you don't have them, I would really encourage you to pray about finding some. Let's pray. Father, we love you. You're so good to us. You provide for us in ways that, gosh, we just will never know about on this side of eternity. Lord, if there are folks here who don't have anybody with permission or access in their life, I pray that you would help them even as they think and process. Show them who they can trust. Give us the courage to take steps of radical accountability, of radical permission, of radical access to one another just so we can keep ourselves within some boundaries that we think are good and that you think are good. Father, I pray that if there's anybody here who's caught up in stuff that just isn't good for them, Lord, that you would help them see and find their way out. I know they don't want to be caught up in it. I know that it eats them up. Give them a glimpse of hope this morning that it doesn't have to always be the story. Father, we pray these things in your son's name. Amen.

Good morning. My name is Steve Goldberg. I'm the worship pastor here at Grace Raleigh. And I just got to be up front with you first and foremost. It's been a little while since I've done something like this, since I've talked in front of a congregation like this. In fact, I think we have a picture of the last time I did it. That's me on the right. Okay, that was my bar mitzvah. That was several years ago. And a few things have changed since then, so I'm trying to adapt with that. So last week, Nate brought the first installment in our series of best practices. He talked about reading the Bible. And I don't know about you, but I felt convicted about that. And I, even as a pastor, do not spend as much time in the Bible as I think that I should. And I dedicated more time this week in the Bible, and I feel extremely blessed because of that. I've also heard that many of you are doing the same thing and that it's a blessing as well. I would like to encourage you to keep going with that, to keep on. And if those of you that haven't jumped in yet, it's not too late to start reading your Bible. Jump in, start today. I'm sure it will be a blessing in your lives. So a few months ago when we were talking about this series on best practices, Nate said to me, Steve, we're going to be doing one on worship. And as the worship pastor at Grace, I would like you to take that one. And I immediately said, oh, this is great. This is great. This is what I do. This is going to be so easy. This is low-hanging fruit. I've wanted to share with you for a long time. I really only get about a minute or so during each service each Sunday, so I get to share everything that I want to about worship. So I sat down, and I started putting my thoughts together, started doing some research, looking in the Bible, looking in my textbooks, and I quickly realized that if I were to share everything that I want to share with you guys about worship, we would easily be here for half the day. So we're not going to do that today. I can see all the... Okay, good. No, we're not going to do that today. What we're going to do today is just focus on what I think would be a good starting point on worship, and that is to talk about authentic worship. So we're going to be talking about authentic worship today. So when I was 12 years old, my uncle made me a tape. He dubbed it. Do you remember how to do that with the buttons and the this and then you undo it? Yeah. Okay. So he made me a tape of Jimi Hendrix live at Monterey. And if you're not familiar with this concert, this is the one where he hit the scene and he lit his guitar on fire, okay? So 12-year-old Steve hearing this for the first time, I could not believe what I was hearing. I immediately, immediately ran down to the garage. I grabbed my wiffle ball bat. I grabbed some string. I grabbed some tape. I ran back up to my room. I put the string on the bat. I put on the bat. I put on sunglasses, my best Hard Rock Cafe shirt, and I pretended to be Jimi Hendrix in the mirror. I had to be a part of it. Music has that way of affecting us deeply. Music goes into us. It affects us. Have you ever seen people who have Alzheimer's or maybe dementia, that they're living in another reality, and then somebody plays Amazing Grace or Just As I Am for them, and they have this moment of clarity, and they can sing every word and every note. This is how music affects us. The first time that I went to church with my wife, for those of you who don't know, we were separated at one point. We were heading toward divorce. We started going to church together. It was the music, when I walked in, the music that broke down those walls that I could hear the good news of Jesus. This is the effect that music has on us. But is all music worship? No. Is God looking just for music? No. He's looking for worship. So we're going to be talking about worship today. But worship is kind of a broad term. We can worship all kinds of things. We can worship God. That's good. We can worship other gods. Not so good. We can worship the universe, nature, our finances, our careers, our spouses, our children. So today I thought it would be good to kind of hone in on what we're talking about. We're going to be talking about authentic worship in the church, corporate worship. And so I have a definition for us that worship is the activity of glorifying God in his presence with our voices, our bodies, and hearts. So worship is the activity of glorifying God in his presence with our voices, bodies, and hearts. Did you know that praise and worship is mentioned over 400 times in the Bible? That we're commanded to worship over 50 times in the Bible? So anything that's mentioned that much in the Bible I think deserves for us to take a look at. So first of all, we want to look at why we don't praise the Lord with our breath, Psalm 98 says that the rocks will cry out and the rivers will clap their hands. Now we live close enough to the mountains here in Raleigh. Have you ever been next to a river and listened to the sound of that? Does it not sound like applause? And the rivers clap their hands for God. All of creation praises God. The next time that you're walking along a river, maybe taking a hike, take a moment and worship God right there. Not only did he create worship here, he created it in heaven. You understand? All of this goes away. But not worship. Worship is our primary activity in heaven. So he created it. Also, he is worthy of it. He is worthy of worship. Great is the Lord, most worthy of praise. His greatness no one can fathom. That's Psalm 145. He's the only one worthy of worship. Now, we sometimes get that wrong. We sometimes misstep. We sometimes put things ahead of God when maybe we shouldn't. If you do that, listen, you're not alone. John, we just did a series in John. He wrote the Gospel of John. He also wrote some letters and Revelation. John, in Revelation, And you know that this is true. And why do we know it's true? He wrote the book. He could have left that part out, but he didn't. He chose to keep it in there so that we can know that we're not alone in this. He's also present in worship. What did we talk about earlier for our definition? Worship is the activity of glorifying God in his presence with our voices, our bodies, and our hearts. He's present in worship. This is something that I think we kind of take for granted nowadays, that he's present in worship, okay? Before Christ, to be in the presence of God was not a common thing. Before Christ, God dwelled in the Holy of Holies. Now, you have to understand that in Israel, there was the temple. Most people could not go into the inner part of the temple, the holy place. They were on the outskirts. They could not even be close to the presence of God there. Then, within that holy place, there was something called the Holy of Holies. And that's where the Ark of the Covenant was. The only person, there was only one person that could go in there. That was the high priest. Only one person could go into the presence of God, and that only happened once a year on the Day of Atonement, on Yom Kippur. Once a year, one person could be in the presence of God. Okay? And let me give you an idea of how serious they were about this. They were so serious that they would tie a rope around him when he went in so that in case he died while in there, they could pull him out. That's pretty amazing. I mean, the fact that that's how serious it was to be in the presence of God. Now, through Jesus, we're able to be in the presence of God. He says that wherever two or more are gathered in his name, he is present. So how do we do this? Well, worship is the activity of glorifying God in his presence with our voices, our bodies, and our hearts. So with our voices, we can sing. The Lord is my strength and my shield. In him my heart trusts and I am helped. My heart exalts and with my song I give thanks to him. That's Psalm 28. We know this. There's time dedicated in our service to this. There are billboard charts called praise and worship. Singing connects us to God. It connects our hearts to our minds. In fact, praise is mentioned in multiple ways, this singing in the Old and New Testaments. We have tehillah, to praise vocally in song or shouts. Hallelujah, you might be familiar with. This is a shouting call for corporate praise. We have tada, which is to sing praises together as one community in harmony. This is what we do when we gather each week in worship. So we worship God in his presence with our voices and with our bodies also. We see this multiple times. Now I'm going to say a few verses here. I just want you to know that I'm not making this stuff up. I mean, this stuff is in the Bible as worthy offerings to God. I mean, this is acceptable worship to God. You can bow your head to God. The man bowed his head and worshiped the Lord, Genesis 24. You can lift your hands. So I will bless you as long as I live. In your name I will lift my hand, Psalm 63. This word is yadah, to lift or throw arms upward in praise and surrender. A similar one to this is spreading out your hands, like this. This is sabah, to reach out with affection to God, to feel his hold on us. This is almost like you're reaching out for a hug from God. This is I need you, God. Bowing your knee. praising God. We're getting excited about God. Clap your hands, all people. Shout to God with loud songs of joy. Psalm 47. Here's one of my personal favorites. Falling on your face before the Lord. Leviticus 9. And fire came out from before the Lord and consumed the burnt offerings and the pieces of fat on the altar.. If you put your envelope in there, and the Lord's fire came and consumed it, I think we'd all shout and hit the floor, right? And you know what? We would be worshiping. Okay, dancing. Uh-oh. Dancing. Okay. And David danced before the Lord with all his might, and David was wearing a linen ephod. This is 2 Samuel 6. David is king of Israel. He's returning with the Ark of the Covenant to put it in the Holy of Holies. He's built a tabernacle for it. He's super excited. And how excited is he? He rips off his clothes and basically dances in his underwear through the streets. And I think we have a video of this. Anybody catch who that was? Richard Gere? You should go find that on Netflix. So what he's doing is halal. This is to boast foolishly, to make a show of it. But what do we see there, right? So he's dancing through the streets. He doesn't have his clothes on. Everybody's cheering and shouting, right? But what else did we see? We saw his wife looking out the window, right? Okay, and this is actually, ouch, right? Right? But David retorted to Michal, I was dancing before the Lord who chose me above your father and all his family. He appointed me as the leader of Israel, the people of the Lord. So I celebrate before the Lord. And then he goes one step further. Yes, I am willing to look even more foolish than this, even to be humiliated in my own eyes. But those servant girls who you mentioned will indeed think I am distinguished. He was dancing with abandonment before the Lord. How often have we been in this place? I'm sure we've all been there at some point in our lives where we've done something maybe vulnerable or something that we believed in or just put ourselves out there and people criticize that. They look down on us for it. It's happened to all of us. It's not a good feeling. On the other side of things, how often are we the Michal in that story where we look at someone and go, why are they doing that? Why are they acting that way? Maybe don't they know that we don't do that here? It's easy to see ourselves in both situations here. So we talked about worship is the activity of praising, worship is the activity of glorifying God in his presence with our voices, our bodies, and our hearts. This is the authentic part I want to talk about. We worship with our hearts. It's good for us to worship. God created us to delight in him. We experience this delight a great deal in worship. In fact, Psalm 92 says, it is good to give thanks to, a few years ago, I was at a worship conference in Orlando. And it was one of the big conferences that they do every year. There are about 1,500 worship leaders there. And all the popular worship artists were there too. So we had like Hillsong and Bethel, Phil Wickham, Chris Tomlin, Elevation. I mean, it's a lot of the songs that we do here, those artists were there. And the times of worship were very powerful. I mean, they know how to usher you into the presence of God. And it was powerful. But at one point during the conference, the power went out. And everybody in the room, all 1,500 of us laughed first because, you know, we're all in worship ministry. It's like, ha, ha, ha, like we're elbowing each other. Like, it even happens to them. You know, look at them squirm. And so we were laughing. And then we see all the people dressed in all black coming, like running around the stage and everything with their flashlights trying to figure out what the problem is. And when it was obvious that the power wasn't going to just come back on, we kind of settled down a little bit. And out of the front of the room, there were maybe eight people or so, started singing, How Great Thou Art. We sang that this morning. Worship doesn't need the lights and the sound and all the stuff. Worship is about our voices, our bodies, and our hearts in God's presence. They started singing. It started rippling out as the verse was going. Everybody knows this song. We're all worship leaders. There's 1,500 of us singing relatively well in harmony. Okay? This moment was amazing. I'm singing my heart out. It gets to everybody singing and worshiping. The room is erupting in worship. We get to the chorus, and I go to sing, and nothing comes out. Nothing comes out. I'm so overwhelmed by what's happening that I fall to my knees and just lift my hands and try to whisper the words. I had never heard anything so beautiful, and I don't think I ever will until I get to heaven. That really was, I believe, a taste of what heaven is going to sound like. It's not going to sound like acoustic guitars and drums. It's going to sound like God's created people worshiping with our breath. This was authentic worship. So our authentic worship here is going to be us. It's not going to be what the church down the street is doing. If we copy what the church down the street is doing, it's not authentic, right? If we copy what they're doing online at megachurches and see how they're worshiping, it's not going to be authentic, because authentic worship comes from the heart. So we need to worship authentically like Grace Raleigh. We need to worship authentically like Grace Raleigh. Now, also, feeling something in your heart. Did you notice something in all this worship that I mentioned in the Bible that it's all actions? It's all things that you feel in your heart and you do. So authentic worship isn't going to be feeling something in your heart and not doing anything about it. That's not authentic either. Authentic worship is feeling it in your heart and expressing it. But are we going to look like the church down the street? No, we're not. We're going to look like us. So, we are going to have a time of worship here at the end of our service. And let me just tell you, as we go into that time, you know, grace is a very unique church, I think. Grace has been through a lot over the years. Grace is full of people who love each other. I will say that most people who come here for the first time, one of the first comments that they have is how much a family it feels like here, how friendly people are, how included they feel. What I'm trying to say is that this is a safe place. This is a place where family can be family with each other. If you are feeling a way to express yourself, let's not be the Michals in the story and say, what are they doing? We don't do that here. And listen, I know that it's going to look different. It's going to look different. It's going to look like us. And all that we want as a church is to worship God with all of our hearts. So I'd like to ask you all to stand and join me as we pray together. Dear Heavenly Father, we thank you for this day. We thank you that we get the opportunity to glorify you in your presence. What an amazing thing it is that we can come into your presence and use the breath that you have given to us to just give back to you. Lord, we know that you work deeply in us, that you love us, that you knew us before we were born, that you know every hair on our heads. So Lord, we ask that that love just come through us now in a powerful way. And we pray all of this in Jesus' name. Amen. Let's worship together. You give life, You are love, You bring light to the darkness. You give hope, You restore every heart that is broken and great are you lord it's your breath in our lungs so we pour out our praise we pour out our praise it's your breath in our lungs so we pour out our praise to you only you give life, You are love, You bring light to the darkness. You give hope, You restore every heart that is broken and great are you lord it's your breath in our lungs so we pour out our praise we pour out our praises your breath in our lungs so we pour out our praise to you only is your breath in our lungs so we pour out our praise we pour out our praises your breath in our lungs so we pour out our praise to you only he's so good and worthy of our praise. Let it pour out of you. will shout your praise our hearts will cry these bones will sing great are you lord and all the earth will shout your praise our hearts will cry these bones will sing pray are you lord and all the earth will shout your praise our Our hearts will cry. These bones will sing. Hey, are you Lord? It's your breath in our lungs. So we pour out our praise. We pour out our praise we pour out our praises your breath in our lungs so we pour out our praise to you only it's your breath in our lungs so we pour out our praise we pour out our praise. We pour out our praise. It's your breath. In our lives. So we pour out our praise to you only. What a gift it is to be able to praise God freely and openly. And we can only do that because he allows us to. He created us to worship him and to glorify him. And he does that because he loves us. He is jealous of me. Love's like a hurricane. I am a tree bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy. When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory And I realize just how beautiful you are How great your affections are for me And oh, how He loves us all. Oh, how He loves us. How He loves us all. He is jealous of me, loves like a hurricane. I am a tree bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy. When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory And I realize just how beautiful you are and how great your affections are for me And oh, how He loves us all. Oh, how He loves us. How He loves us Oh, how He loves us Oh are his portion and he is our prize drawn to redemption by the grace in his eyes if his grace is an ocean we're all sinking and heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss and my heart turns violently inside of my chest I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way that he loves us oh how he loves us oh how he loves us Oh Oh how He loves us Oh how He loves us Oh how He loves Oh Oh, how He loves us. Oh, how He loves us. Oh, how He loves.

Well, good morning. My name is Nate. I am one of the pastors here. Before I get rolling, you should know that your Christmas offering is at work, okay? We got the new lights installed over the weekend. I think they look amazing. I think Steve and the team did a phenomenal job. We had some volunteers here sacrificing some time and a specialist in who's running the lights for us this week. So we are very fancy. And we're very grateful for all their time. So let's say thank you to them. And if you gave to the Christmas offering at all, then you helped with this. So thank you so much as we continue just to kind of take steps forward in excellence. We're starting a new series this week called Best Practices. And to start the series, I wanted to take you back to, I think it was about 11 years ago, in 2008, I'm on a trip to Honduras. I taught at a school at the time. I was the high school Bible teacher and the chaplain, those poor young minds. And the trip that we took every week was, or every year was to Honduras. And so because I was a chaplain, I got to go. And the guy that led it was a guy who lived in the States named Mark Searcy. He's actually, he grew up on a tobacco farm in North Carolina. I think I said that right, tobacco. And he became, at the age of 19, he got married and he felt compelled to be a missionary. And so he moved to Haiti to farm there and to be a missionary in Haiti and ended up fleeing because they feared for their lives. The government was kind of chasing them down. And so they flew out in the middle of the night. And then they became missionaries in Honduras. And then at this season of life, I think he was in his 50s at the time, he led trips back down to Honduras with some of the people that he met down there. And so we partnered up with Mark Searcy. And I loved Mark. He has an easy laugh. He's a good old boy. He always had in his chest pocket a miniature bottle of Tabasco sauce for any of the food that they might eat or encounter in Honduras to kind of just make it more palatable. Like, he was a good dude. And the first night we were there, Mark says, hey, I'm going to do a Bible study. So whoever wants, just come on up to my room. We'll sit out on the porch and we'll do a Bible study. I'm like, great, I'm in. So I go up there and a couple of the kids go up there and dude starts teaching out of the Bible and he opens up his Bible. And I don't know about you, but when other people open up their Bible, I'm always like, I want to see how marked up is this thing, right? Because I heard one time, show me a Bible that's falling apart, and I'll show you a life that isn't. So I wanted to look at his Bible and go, man, what's in there? And what I saw is that it was marked up to high heaven. There was highlighters, four different color highlighters all over the place. And he starts to teach in this southern draw and this easy speak and kind of the occasional giggling. And I'm loving it. I'm eating it up. This dude knows his stuff. He knows his Bible. And I've been in Christian school. I've got a seminary degree. And I'm listening to him and I'm like, I've never heard anybody explain the Bible like this. I'm all in. And then he finished, and he said, any questions y'all have, we can just stay up. I love God's Word. We can just stay up talking about it as long as you want to. I kept that dude up until 2 in the morning, 3 nights in a row, asking him questions about the Bible. Until every night, he was like, Nate, I've got to go to bed. And I was like, okay, me too. And then we'd just be exhausted the next day. I loved it so much. And his knowledge was so effusive and so easy. Any question you asked him, Mark, what'd you think about this? What about this? How do I make sense of this? He would go, okay. And he would know the story to go to or the exact reference to go to. He didn't have to take his phone like I do and Google that. Let me Google those keywords. Oh, that's in Colossians. No, he just knew and he would turn there. And then he had this cross-reference system. Everything that was highlighted had notes out to the side and those were other verses that talked about the same thing. And so he'd off the top of his head, flip to a page, read you that verse, talk to you about it. And then he'd go like, well, actually it would be helpful if we could do this one and this one and this one. And so he'd flip over and just verse after verse after verse. And I found out that there was a method to his coordination. Each highlighter meant something different. And it was amazing. I loved hearing the Bible for Mark Searcy because he knew it so well. And you probably have known people like that in your life. Men or women who were such students of God's Word, who loved it so much that you felt like you could ask them any question and they could give you a verse to help you answer that question. And I think as believers, whenever we hear that somebody has a knowledge of the Bible like that, we all go, I wish I knew the Bible like that. Don't we? I wish my Bible looked like that. I wish people could ask me a question about spirituality and I could just give you a verse. Anything. I wish I knew the Bible like that. And I think that we know that if we did know the Bible like that, that we would be better at life. We would be better parents. Maybe, I mean, growing up, my dad, if we missed Sunday, if we were traveling on a Sunday, it's not like we got to lay out of church. We had just family church, which was way lamer than normal church. So I wanted to be in town on Sundays just to avoid my dad's sermons. But he would give these sermons and he knew the Bible and it stuck with me all these years later that it mattered enough to him to open up scripture and continue to teach it to us. And for some of us, if we thought of the idea of doing family church, of teaching our family the Bible, of opening it up for our children, we would probably be intimidated by that. We might not know where to turn or what to do, and maybe we wish we could do that. From time to time, we'll talk about doing a devotional in the house. Maybe we wish we could do that. Maybe we wish that when we opened up, that when we went to work and people would ask us questions about what we think and what we believe and how do I deal with this situation, I bet we wish we knew where to turn. I think when we hear about people who know God's Word really well, it's a very natural and common thing for us to think to ourselves, I wish I did too. But the question really becomes then, how can we do that if we don't study it all the time? Those highlights in Mark's Bible, and they were from cover to cover, they didn't happen in a day. That was years of waking up every day and spending time in God's Word, spending time in prayer. What I say are the two most important habits that any person can develop ever. That's years of effort. That's years of learning. That's years of seeking things out. That's years of prioritizing studying his Bible. How can we ever know it, those people that you admire? How can you ever know the Bible like them if we don't study it like them? How can we ever know God's Word like that if we don't read it every day? How can we ever be truly helpful, as helpful as we could possibly be to those in our circles of influence, to those on our tennis team, to those that we work with, to those that we happen to hang out with or are in some club with, or how can we ever truly be as helpful to our neighbors as possible if we don't know God's word to help them and how can we know God's word if we don't prioritize it and study it every day? We know this to be true. As a matter of fact, I think that to a room full of what are probably, I'm guessing, mostly Christians, whenever you talk about reading the Bible, you get the exact same reaction as when somebody talks about their diet, right? You have a friend, and they're losing weight. They're just withering away. And you notice them, and you're like, yo, what are you doing? You look great. You're going to have to buy all new clothes. What's going on? And they tell you about their diet. Oh, I'm doing the keto diet. I'm doing, I'm no carbs, no sugar. I'm just, I'm the starvation diet. I haven't eaten in three weeks. Like whatever it is, like some new thing, I'm doing this diet. What do you always say to yourself or sometimes out loud to them? I should do that. You see somebody and they're just looking healthy. What are you doing? They're like, I took up swimming. I'm running. I'm running with a group of people three times a week. It's really great. What do you always say to yourself? I should do that. Right? Because we know it's good for us. Somebody, maybe you're talking to a friend and they're telling you about this new budgeting technique. Man, me and my husband, me and my wife, we've been kind of budgeting. We're doing this and this and this. And you always, personal finances, we go, I should do that. When we hear, hey, we should read the Bible, all of us in our heads go, I should do that. No one's here to argue with me about that. As a matter of fact, I've worked really hard to not let it out that this week was going to be about reading the Bible because I was afraid that we would hear that it was about reading the Bible and go, oh, yeah, I know. Like, I should do that, right? And we know all the verses. We know what Scripture says about reading Scripture. We say that it's sharper than any two-edged sword, that it penetrates soul and spirit, bone and marrow. We know that the word of God is living and active. We know that God's word will not return null and void. Whatever we invest in it, we will get a return on that investment. We know that we are supposed to hide it in our hearts, that we might not sin against God. There's this idea that by memorizing the Bible, that by consuming it, that by learning it, it somehow operates as a preventative so that we don't do the things that we don't want to do anyways. We know that. We know that we're supposed to hide it in our heart. We know that we're supposed to put it on our walls and instill it in our children and teach it to the next generation. Like, listen, guys, we know the verses about reading the Bible. And if you don't, if those were new to you, then now you do. We know that we're supposed to do that. As a matter of fact, if the point of this morning was only, hey, go read the Bible more, literally, I think all I'd have to do is come up here and let this be the sermon. Hey, this is part one of best practices for this week. You should read the Bible. Let's pray. And honestly, tell me if I'm lying, 10 of you would be like, yeah, he's right. And you'd go home and you'd do it. Because we know that this is what we need to do. So to me, the more interesting question becomes, if we know we're supposed to do this, and none of us here would argue with me that it's super important to invest ourselves in learning Scripture, then why don't we do it? Why aren't we better at it? That's one of the church's dirty little secrets. I don't know if you know this, and I have to be careful about that. I'm sure there's more that are worse. But one of them is this. Nobody's very good at this. There are some pockets, very few heroes, who have made it a habit and do it daily and have for years. And those are the people who are rock stars that I want to be like. There are others we've experienced, this is where I would put myself, pockets of success where we have months and years where we're very good, and then we have days and weeks where we just forget or we get busy or we just aren't interested then, and we fall away. Everybody struggles with this discipline. I know this to be true because I've spent enough time in ministry and enough time in church that I've stopped being surprised at people who tell me they're going to start reading their Bible. People who we respect, who seem to have it together, and very much do, and are leaders in the church, who will come to me privately, and not just here and just my general experience. I don't want you to start thinking, naming names, like who's buddies with him that doesn't read the Bible. I don't want you to do that. But people are coming, will come to me and be like, hey, because of this experience, I just want you to know, like, I'm really going to get back into God's word every day. And earlier on in my ministry, I would be kind of surprised, like, what? You don't read the Bible? I thought I was the only hypocrite. You're like me? I've talked to pastors. It breaks my heart. I've talked to pastors who are like, yeah, I don't read the Bible every day. My sermon prep is my devotion. I'm like, bro, that's not good for you. So one of the secrets of the church that I just wanted to be honest about is nobody's good at it. Very few people maintain that discipline for a long time. So if you're here and your first thought to, hey, we should read the Bible more, and your first thought was, I should do that. Listen, everybody in the room feels the way that you do. Who's a believer? Everybody feels that way. So to me, the more interesting question is, if we all agree that we should do it, and we know the verses about it, and there's really not a new angle to approach you to convince you to do it, then the more interesting question is, why don't we? So I put a question out on Facebook this week, and I've been talking to people. Hey, we know that we should read the Bible. Why don't we do it? Y'all don't know this, but Facebook's one of the best sermon prep tools that there is. And I got a bunch of interesting answers. And they kind of fall into two categories. One category of reasons kind of tells on our motives a little bit. And the other categories of reasons are really things that probably should be discussed and handled. And so we're going to look at both of them. But I saw a lot of people say, I'm too busy. I just, I want to do it. I know that I should. I just, I'm busy. And that's legit. We're all busy. If you're not busy, we are all jealous of you. We all have more to do than we want to do. We all feel rushed every day. That's life. That's how it goes. And then when we have the down moments, when we can finally rest, we just want to shut everything off. That's not, maybe we don't want to run to Scripture. So some people said that they were busy. Some people said, and I thought this one was particularly interesting, that it's more easy to be comfortable than it is to be convicted. They kind of expressed this idea of, if I open the Bible and read it, I'm going to feel bad about my life. And I don't really need that right now, so I'm going to leave it be. And I thought, honestly, I'm not trying to be overly dramatic. I just thought how sad that to some people we've reduced Scripture to this source of conviction and not a source of hope. And we forget that it gives us promises and good news and offers us freedom in what is best for us, that hope is found in Scripture. And what a shame when we reduce it to the source of conviction, which, by the way, is because that's what's best for us if it does convict, because God has a heart to serve us, right? So some people said conviction. Some people said that they were busy. Some people just said, it's not interesting. I've read it before, you know, like I've read it before. I know it. I know what Ephesians says. And so now I just read other stuff. But one person even, they asked a question and I thought that this was really telling. One person said, you know, I really don't like to read, which is pretty legit. There are some people who just don't like to read and that's fine. I mean, I get that. We got to, that a roadblock that we've got to find a way past. But he said, I don't like to read. It's just not my thing. So I like to try to listen to the Bible in my car sometimes. Does that count? And I thought, what an interesting question. Does that count? Does it count for what? To whom? What score are we keeping here? Who's tracking that with you? Does that count? And you know it really told on him, didn't it? And it tells on us too. Because it's a question I've asked and I've heard before. If I read one verse a day, does that count? If I remember a verse and I say it out loud, does that count? If I read one chapter, does that count? If the chapter's short and it only takes me two minutes, does that count? Count for what? What are you doing? Who are you trying to please when you do that, when you ask if it counts? And it really tells on our motives, doesn't it? All of those questions, all of those excuses so far. When we're asking, does this count? What we're revealing is that we're really reading the Bible out of a sense of ought or duty. I'm doing this because I should, right? We talk about reading the Bible more, and the very first thing we experience is, oh, I should do that. Not, I miss that. I want to do that. I long for that. It's, I should do that. Like do your taxes or not eat meat. Things that really stink. I should do that. And that's what we relegate the Bible to, is this thing that we should do. And so it becomes this duty that we perform out of a sense of ought. And by white knuckle discipline, we get up early and we read the Bible. We get up early, we set our alarm. It's a big thing. We make coffee. We sit down with our Bible or our app or whatever it is, and we read it for five minutes. We're like, oh, gosh, that was great. I need to text out some verses, right? It's this thing that we do out of the sense of ought or obligation. And I don't know how you work, but whenever I do something out of a sense of ought, I always end up resenting that thing. You ever joined a Bible study because a friend asked you to? And you didn't really want to, but you didn't want to tell them no either. And so you did it. And every week that dang thing rolls around. You're like, has it been a week yet? Is it really Wednesday? And you dread it and you complain and you go and it's fine. And you come home and you're like, I'm glad that's over. That stinks, man. You ever volunteer out of a sense of ought? You don't like that. That's no fun. You dread it. The things that I do because I feel like I should out of a sense of ought that I just make myself do out of white-knuckle discipline, I never enjoy them, they never stick, and they never are around for very long. And so it's no wonder if what's motivating us to read the Bible is this sense of ought and should that we fall away from that discipline. It's no wonder that it doesn't work, right? So really we have to start asking, well, what's the right reason to read the Bible? Because I would tell you, if you leave here and you feel a sense of ought that you should, then I would just tell you don't yet. Because I think the only real motive that will sustain us and enliven us as we try to make this a discipline in our lives is to be motivated by a deep desire to know God. And I would ask that question to you. And I think that this is the question for the series as we go through this series called Best Practices. Every week we're going to look at a different spiritual discipline. Worship next week and then prayer and then some of the more forgotten disciplines. Some of the best practices that we can have in life and in spirituality. And the driving question for all of these practices really is do you want to know God? Do you have a heart for God? Mark wanted to know God. He wasn't trying to become smarter. He wasn't trying to be good at teaching. He wasn't trying to be an effective missionary or an effective pastor. Mark wanted to know God, and his Bible was evidence of that. The way that it gushed out of him when he got to talk about God was evidence of that. He wanted to know God and so he dove into God's word every day to get to know him better because he understood that there's no better way to get to know our creator God than to read the word that he left us that thousands of people have died for that's been preserved for us over the centuries so that we could have the living God there as we read him. He wanted to know God. Those nights staying up till two, those were pure nights. My motive was to know God. I had never heard the Bible like this. I had never heard it explained like this. I want more, I want more. I want more. And in that moment, it wasn't about being a more effective Bible teacher or prepping for some role down the road. It was just about, I want to know God. And when you wake up every day and one of your prevailing interests in drive that day is, I just want to know God better today. You're going to dive into God's word. And when you're through, you're not going to ask anybody, did that count? Because no one's keeping score. Then the question is, do I know God a little bit better? Do I understand him a little bit better? And so I would say that for many of us, this might be where you can stop this morning and just pray a simple prayer. If you're sitting there and you're taking an inventory of yourself, do I want to know God? First of all, be honest about that. There have been plenty of times in my life, some while I've been at Grace, where if you sat me down and said, Nate, do you want to know God right now? I would have to be honest and go, no, just don't. Which is why one of my regular prayers I prayed at some point every year of my life, if not more frequently than that, is God, help me to want you more. And for some of you, that's all you need today, is to just commit to praying that prayer. God, I don't want you right now. Help me to want you more. Help me to desire you more. Give me a drive that wants to know you, that makes me want to get up and open your word. Give me a drive that wants to understand the Bible more. God, I want to know you. I long for you. If that's not there, the disciplines that we're going to talk about for the next four weeks, those will fade. That's the only proper motive is the desire to know God more. And so I would say for a lot of us, it starts there. Father, give me a desire for you so that I will get up and pursue you more. And these best practices that we're talking about, I think they're best practices because they ignite your desire for God by your continued participation in them, in scripture reading and in worship and in prayer and in the other disciplines. They ignite your desire for God and then they deepen your knowledge of God. That's why they're the best practices. That's why we're going to walk through them for the next four weeks. But the fundamental question to the series, to all of those things, is do you want to know God? For some of you, the take-home needs to be, Father, I want to know you more. Help me. Now, there are others here, I think probably a lot, who you would say, yeah, I want to know God. I mean, I could want to know him more, but I want to know God. I genuinely do. I genuinely want to understand Scripture better than I already do. There's just some things that make it hard for me because I do think that there are some legitimate hangups and some roadblocks that need to be removed so that we can make this a part of our life. Things like when I read it, it's hard for me to understand. I just don't understand. There's big words or there's words I'm unfamiliar with, and I just, when I read it, I don't, it doesn't make sense to me. It's kind of out of context. I don't get it, whatever it is. We'll talk about that. Sometimes that's a translation issue. For some people, one of the comments I got, and I could totally relate to this, was, you know, when I just read words on the page and process them on my own, it doesn't really light me up. What lights me up is getting to talk about it with others. That helps me. Sometimes I come alive in conversation and hearing how you experienced it and getting to bounce reactions off of you. That's really helpful to me. I relate to that. I have a men's Bible study. We've taken a break for the summer because I don't like them that much. But when we start meeting again in the fall, all we do every week, particularly this guy, all we do every week is we read two chapters of the Bible and then we get together and I go, okay, what'd you learn? What'd you see? What'd you experience? What do you have questions about? We start to talk about God's word. So if you're somebody who's a processor who needs to talk about this with other people, get in a group where you can do that. Sometimes that's a legitimate need. One person said, you know, I like to be able to read the passage, but as it's just isolated there on its own, I really don't know what to make of it. I would love it if there was some sort of an explanation of the passage next to it so that I could consume them together. That's a devotional. What you need is a devotional. They're all over the place. Go online, type in devotional, they'll come up and buy one. If you need help or a guide with those, let me know. Email me, write it on your communication card, and I'll follow up with you. But a devotional, somebody, an author has opened it up, they list a verse, and then they have information next to the verse that helps you reflect on what you just read. Maybe that's what you need. If you're having a hard time understanding it, it could possibly be your translation. And this is a little tedious, but every time I talk about this in a Bible study, everybody who's there with me kind of really pays attention. And so my thought is that maybe we don't know this in church, And so I'm going to share this with you. If it's boring, I'm sorry. But when we start talking about Bible translations, there's really three major ways to do it. There's word for word, there's sentence for sentence, and there's thought for thought. The Bible was written in Hebrew and Greek and in Aramaic. The New Testament was written in this thing called Koine Greek, which means common Greek, which is a really solid argument against the King James Version. I'm just saying. As a matter of fact, if you don't understand it and you're reading the King James Version, stop it. That's a hard one to understand, and it doesn't really, it's not super helpful. But the three different kinds of translations, word for word, sentence for sentence, thought for thought. Word for word, what the translator does when they're trying to translate it from Greek to English or whatever the original language was in that verse to English, is they're just looking at the word. They're going, what does this word mean? What's the best possible English word for this word? But if you've ever taken a foreign language, you know that sometimes the sentence structure is not the same. Subject, verb, order, and adjective order is not the same all the time as it is in English. And so you have to minimally reorganize the words so that the sentence still means the same thing. But a word-for-word translation is trying the best they can to stay true to whatever this word is. A great example of word-for-word is the NASB, the New American Standard Bible. That's probably the most accurate translation going right now. I think you can make an argument for Holman. I'm not sure. I haven't looked at it in a while. But that's word for word. It's not very readable. If you look up something in the NASB, it's kind of hard to read. It's less understandable, but the words are right. So if you're doing a Bible study and you really want to know what does this verse say, look it up in the NASB. It can be very helpful. Then there's sentence for sentence. Sentence for sentence is they take it and they go, okay, this is what this sentence means in the original language. What's the best way to restate this in English so that people can read it, but it also stays true to what was written? A good example of this is the NIV or the ESV. I preach from the ESV and I read the ESV. Those are sentence for sentence, a little bit more readable, but while maintaining accuracy. And then there's thought for thought where they take like a whole verse and the translator says, what is this verse saying? And what's the best way to say that in English? A good example of this is the NLT, or the new living. If you are someone who's never really read the Bible regularly, and it is hard to understand, one of my first encouragements for you would be to start with the new living. You'll pick one up, use that filter on your Bible app. We're going to talk about those in a second. Use that filter there and choose the NLT, and it makes for a more readable, easily understood experience. Sometimes it's just a translation issue. And then some of you may wonder about something like the message. That's not a Bible translation. The guy that did it, Eugene Peterson, said this is not a translation. It's just to help. So it's good to read for overall comprehension, but you should always balance that with something that is an actual translation. So it could just be a translation issue that's a roadblock for us. For those that feel like we need more or you don't know what to read, that's a big question too. I want to read the Bible. I don't know what to read. I do a reading plan, but sometimes, Nate, those stink. So what else could I possibly read? There's an app called YouVersion. Some of us know, a lot of us know about it. Some of us don't. If you do know about it, man, you should be using this thing. It's called YouVersion. It's the Bible on your phone. They have it in the Apple store. And then for snooty Android users, they have it in the Google Play thing. Okay. So they have it there too. It's everywhere. You download it and it's the Bible on your phone in every possible translation ever. So you can figure out one that works for you. And then they have literally hundreds of reading plans. Some last seven days, three days, some last a whole year on godly womanhood, godly manhood, how to be a better husband, how to be a better wife, how to be single, how to be a better parent, how to be a better kid, how to be a better employee or employer, what the Bible has to say about grace or faith or mercy or love, chronological through the Old Testament or through the New Testament. You can find any number of things there, and it will tell you what to read every day when you wake up. And you can keep track of it, and you can take notes in it, and it'll keep track of your notes. It's a phenomenal tool. It's hugely helpful. And one of the best things it'll do, for those of you with commutes who don't like reading, it will read the Bible to you. You don't have to do anything special. You just open it up, and at the bottom of every chapter, there's a play button. You hit that, and it'll just start reading it to you. So you can listen while you walk or while you're in the car or whenever. It's hugely, hugely helpful. So here's what I want us to do this morning. Everybody, when you walked in, you were at least offered a bulletin. I want everybody to take that out right now. If you don't have a bulletin, you can use the back of a communication card, and you can bear down on the Bible that's in front of you. I'm going to give you a little homework. I know that it's summertime and that you didn't expect this and some of you are mad at me right now, but I'm giving you homework and I'm going to ask for everyone to participate because if you're the cool person in your row who doesn't participate, then other people are going to be empowered by your freedom and they're not going to do it either. And so we want everybody to try do this together. So write stuff down, even if you don't mean it, okay? Here's the homework for everybody. Three questions for you today. The first one, what's your goal? What's my goal? As I think about reading the Bible, as I mentally kind of go, I need to do that. What's your goal? What's a reasonable goal for you? It might be to simply, I'm going to pray every day that God will help me to want him more. It may be, I'm going to read my Bible every day this week. I would encourage you to make a goal over this series. It's month long that we're going to be four weeks in this series. I want to set a goal. Maybe it's I read a book of the Bible a week. Maybe it's I read a chapter a day. Maybe it's I read a verse a day. Set a goal for you that's reasonable. Don't get like, don't get your eyes big at the buffet and then bring home more than you can stand, like reasonable. Second, what's my plan? What's my plan? How am I going to accomplish this goal? This is where you need to think through, what are the roadblocks for me? What are the reasons I don't read the Bible more? Is it time? Is it interest? Is it that I need people to talk to? Is it that I don't understand? Is it that I need a devotional? What is it for you? What's your plan? How are you going to make sure that you accomplish this goal? And then last, who are you going to tell? Who are you going to tell? We all know we've made private commitments in our hearts to do things before, and if we just keep it between us and God, we have an incredible propensity to not do that thing. So who are you going to tell? Who are you going to invite into this to hold you accountable? And I would challenge you, if you're married, do not list your spouse there. That's not good. Because listen, I don't know about your marriage, but you probably don't need the added tension of now accountability partners for this new thing on top of everything else. Like, hey, did you pray today? No, but when I do, I'm gonna pray for your attitude. Okay, all right. So don't do that. A friend, somebody who can help you out. Keep track of that together. So today, I hope that there's some emails and some texts going out. I hope that you'll make a commitment to this, that you'll make a plan for this, and that you guys will hold one another accountable. Incidentally, I had this thought this morning. I'm just going to throw this out here. I think sometimes we don't know what to read. We have kind of a loose idea of what we'd like to read, but if we open the Bible, we don't really know what we're approaching. There's narrative books that tell stories. There's books that help us with theology. There's books for wisdom and poetry. There's different books for different things. I thought about typing out summaries of the different categories of the books of the Bible so that you could kind of use as a go-to guide of I'm trying to think about this, what would be helpful? Or as I look at Ephesians, where does that fit in and what is that going to help me do? If you're interested in that, write that on a communication card or email me. And if I get 10 people who are interested, I'll do it. If I get nine, Google. But that's the goal. Take whatever your next step is to make Scripture more a part of your life. If it's, God, I want to want you more, pray that prayer. If it's taking a simple step to overcome an obstacle, do that. Get somebody else involved. And let's be one of the very few churches, I believe, that has a whole bunch of people who are actually good at this because we want God more and we've chosen to prioritize this in our life. All right, I'm gonna pray and then we're gonna move into a time of communion. Father, we love you. God, I know for sure from talking to the people of grace, we want to know you more. A lot of us do. God, I pray that for those of us who might not be feeling that right now, who might just kind of be gliding through life spiritually, that you would ignite in us and in them a desire to know you more. God, I pray that you would help me work in my heart through your spirit to want to want you more. Lord, I pray that as we move through this series, that we would instill these disciplines and practices in our life out of a desire to know you, that you would change the way that we relate to you, that we would walk with you more deeply, that we would love one another more purely, that we would offer one another as a result of these practices more grace and more patience and more earnest and hospitable love. God, I pray that you would use this series in our lives to draw us more nearly to you. I pray for those who do have a goal and who have a plan. God, let them execute it. Give them the courage and the discipline to see it through. Give us grace for ourselves when we mess it up. But God, I pray that we would walk back in here this next week and the week after that victorious in the commitments that we've made. It's in your son's name we pray. Amen.

All right, well, good morning. It's good to see all of you. I know those lights hit you, they're bright, goodness gracious. My name is Nate. I am one of the pastors here, and it's so good to see you. Thanks for being here for the second service and for the last part of our series in John. When we started the series in February, this is, I think, 12 weeks, so it's been one of our longer ones, but I hope that you've enjoyed it. I hope, and my prayer for you has been that you now, as we leave the series, feel a little bit closer to Jesus than you did when we started, that you know him better than you did when we started. I know that there are some themes from the book of John that I will probably always remember that stuck out to me as we went through it as a church this time around. I hope that you can relate to that. Originally, when we had planned the series, we wanted to end it on Easter. At the end on Easter Sunday, that'd be the resurrection story. That's the end of the story of Jesus. Boom, we're done. It's a nice, clean, tidy ending. But as I was studying the book, there's a story in John that's unique to the book of John. It's not in the other gospels, Matthew, Mark, or Luke. It's just in John almost as an addendum. And it's the restoration of Peter. And it's to me one of the most hopeful, life-giving, inspiring, restorative messages and stories that we find from the life of Jesus. And so I thought if it's good enough to be an addendum for John, then it's good enough to be an addendum for grace. And so we came back one extra week in John to look at this story of the restoration of Peter. To appreciate the story, we need to understand what goes into this moment. Eventually, we're going to get to John chapter 21. So if you have a Bible, you can turn there and we're going to be at the end of that chapter. If you don't have one, there's one in the seat back in front of you. If you don't like that option, there's a free one on your phone just seconds away. All right. To understand the story at the end of John, we need to understand who Peter was and what's going on in that story. Peter was kind of the de facto leader of the disciples. Many people think he was probably the oldest disciple. He was, some believe, the only one with a wife when they were called. He was a little bit further on in life than the rest of the disciples were. Peter was one of these guys that would always talk first and think later. He was a ready, fire, aim kind of guy. He's my people. I understand Peter, right? When Jesus walks on the water, what does Peter do? He jumps out of the boat. Well, shoot, I'm doing this too, right? Peter always just said things with confidence and everybody around him was like, well, I guess that's right. Jen asked me, my wife asked me sometimes, like, how do you say things with so much confidence? Like, how do you know that to be true? And I'm like, I don't. I'm just saying it. And people seem to go along with things. That's Peter, man. I can relate to him. He just always the first to answer, always the first to have the idea, always out front, kind of regardless of consequences. One of my favorite stories to kind of illustrate the character of Peter, one day Jesus decides, he gathers the disciples together and he says, hey, you guys, I'm going to wash your feet today. Which is like, that's the lowest of the low job. That's like the summer intern as the servant job. That's what you do. And so Peter, responding with some pomposity, with some piety, says, no, Jesus, never. I can never let you wash my feet. I will never let that happen. And Jesus looks at him and he says, okay, Peter, but unless I wash your feet, you cannot enter into the kingdom of God. And then Peter immediately does a 180. Well, then don't stop at my feet. Wash my head and my hands as well. Like that's Peter, okay? And so at the Last Supper, right before Jesus is arrested and tried and crucified, the last time they spend some good time together, Jesus looks at Peter, the leader of the disciples, and he tells him, before the rooster crows in the morning, you will have denied me three times. And Peter's response is what you would expect Peter's response to be. Never, Lord. I would never deny you. I would not do that. And Jesus says, you're going to. And Peter says, this is a loose paraphrase, agree to disagree, which you never want to agree to disagree with Jesus. You're not in a good spot when that's what you choose. So they leave. Jesus goes and he prays. He brings Peter to pray with them, but Peter falls asleep. John falls asleep. James falls asleep. And then Jesus gets arrested, and he's taken off to the courtyard of the high priest, a guy named Caiaphas. And three weeks ago, we talked about this in the crucifixion story. It was in the courtyard of Caiaphas where Jesus is put on trial, and there were two disciples that actually followed him there. The rest of the disciples dispersed. They ran away. They started worrying about their own necks, and so they ran away to hide so that they wouldn't get arrested too. They figured if they're arresting Jesus, then they're coming for us next, right? And so they all dispersed except for two disciples, Peter and another unnamed disciple, make it to the courtyard of Caiaphas' house. And it's in this courtyard that Jesus was put on trial, that he was falsely accused, that they told lies about him. The one person who's ever existed who deserved this treatment least was getting this treatment. They were blindfolding him and punching him and saying, who hit you, Jesus? You're a prophet. Prophesy about who hit you. And then Jewish tradition says that they were ripping out his beard. So he's beaten up and he's in a moment where he is incredibly loved. This is a man that Jesus has followed every day for three years. He loves this man. He cares for nothing on earth more than this man, and now he's watching him suffer in this way. And Peter's around a campfire as this is happening. And when he gets there, the Bible says there's a servant girl who looks at him and says, hey, don't you know him? Aren't you like in his little group? And Peter says, no, I've never met the man. That's one. A little while later, somebody else says the same thing. Hey, haven't I seen you with him before? Peter says, no, I don't know what we're talking about. I've never met the man. That's twice. And then the Bible says about an hour after that, someone really begins to press him. Hey, aren't you from Galilee? I can tell by your accent, you have to know that man. And Peter gets emphatic. No, I swear I've never met him. And then it says that this is actually, there's this passage in Luke. That's to to me, one of the most intense passages in Scripture. It's something that you may have read before, but we kind of gloss over it. But look at what it says in Luke. Chapter 22, verse 60, it says, But Peter said, Man, I do not know what you are talking about. That's the third time. And immediately while he was still speaking, the rooster crowed. And then verse 61, and the Lord turned and looked at Peter. Can you imagine? Can you imagine? The time when Jesus most needed people around him who loved him. You are his leading disciple and you just denied him three times because you're scared. And his bloody face turns and looks you dead in the eye. Peter remembered the saying of the Lord how he said to him, before the rooster crows you'll deny me three times. And he went out and he wept bitterly. Can you imagine how Peter must have felt? He had betrayed his Jesus. He had let him down. He had denied him. He had told Jesus over and over again, you can count on me. For three years, Jesus had been prepping him and training him and grooming him to take over the church, to step into his ministry. He was to see Jesus and to help lead the church after Jesus' death. And in the moment when he most needed him, he betrayed him and he let him down. And Jesus turned and looked at Peter. You cannot imagine that eye contact. It says he went away and he wept bitterly. I love this story because I so identify with Peter. And to me, if you're a believer, if you're a Christian, then you can identify with him too. If you're here this morning and you're not a Christian, then the good news is that you don't have to feel bad about any of this. You can just take it all in and watch us as we squirm and feel bad. But if you're a believer, then you know this feeling too. If you're a believer, then you know what it is to feel like you've betrayed Jesus, don't you? Has there ever been a time in your life, maybe in a corporate setting, maybe around some clients, maybe with some new friends that you've made, maybe with some old buddies where you kind of fall back into who you used to be, where you took that part of your identity, your Christianity, and you kind of tucked it away back here and kind of didn't wear it on your sleeve for that week or for that night or for that season because you didn't really want them to know who you were associated with? Have you ever in your life tucked away your identity as a believer because you were kind of ashamed and embarrassed if people were to find out that that's who you were because you had not been acting that way? Can I just tell you? I hope that you don't get too disappointed in me for this, but I've been doing ministry for about 20 years. There have definitely been times in my life when because of how I had been acting or what I had been saying or doing or whatever it was, I kind of tucked away my identity as a pastor. I didn't really want to share it with the group of people that I was with. So when Peter betrays Jesus and denies knowing him, I can relate. When we get this sense of betrayal, I've let my Jesus down. To be a Christian is to be familiar with that. I think we've all had different times and different seasons where we feel like we've let Jesus down a little bit. Maybe we've told him. Maybe we've been moved in worship. Maybe we've been moved by a sermon, probably at another church, and we decided that what we were going to do, we were going to start a new discipline. We were going to start a new thing. We had been moved to conviction. And we say, yes, Jesus, I'm going to get up and I'm going to read the Bible. I'm going to get up early. I'm going to make time for you. I'm going to spend time in prayer. I'm going to spend time in your word. That's going to be a discipline in my life. And so we get up and we start to read it. We're following along, but maybe we don't really understand it. We don't hear the angels audibly sing. And so we think we must be doing it wrong. Or we wake up and we kind of do the drop and flop. Like, Jesus, you just show me what you want me to read. And it turns out that because Psalms is in the middle and it's the longest book in the Bible, that God wants us to read Psalms like a lot. So we just, we read that, right? And we don't really know what's going on or what's happening. And for whatever reason, we fall away from that discipline. And then we've told Jesus for however many times, this is going to be a part of my life. And then we fail. And we betray him and we let him down. Or we tell him that we're going to start to give. We understand that believers should give generously, that we should be conduits of God's generosity to us, that we're stewards of the resources that he gives us, and that we should be generous to those that we think Jesus would want to help and serve. And we commit to do this, but things come up and then we don't, and we fall away from that discipline or from that commitment. And we hesitate to even make the commitment again because we messed up the last time, and we don't have much reason to believe that we're going to do better the next time. Right? Or we have things in our life that we don't want there. And so we tell Jesus, I'm done with that. I'm drawing the line in the sand. I'm not going to do that thing again. I'm moved. I'm convicted. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for who I am. I don't want that to be a part of my life. I don't want that to be a part of who I am. Jesus, I'm done with that. I'm moving on by the power of your spirit. Please allow me to be done with that thing. And we move away from that thing. And then three days later or weeks later or maybe months later, we fall back into the thing. So I wonder this morning, have you ever felt like you've betrayed Jesus? Can you relate to Peter? Aren't you glad that in the moment of the height of your betrayal, Jesus isn't looking you in the eye? I think we can all relate to Peter in this moment. The good news is that it gets better. But I think that we can all relate to this idea of letting Jesus down, of betraying him and feeling what Peter must have felt when God looked at him and he went away and he wept bitterly. Which, by the way, when you're confronted with your sin, that's the appropriate response to go away and to weep bitterly. That's a good and right response. And I don't believe that God would steal that response from Peter. I don't think that God would go to him and say, hey, you don't need to do that. I think that's the good and right response when we realize who we are. But he goes away and he weeps bitterly. And then we pick up this story in John chapter 21. In John chapter 21, Jesus has died, he's resurrected, he's appeared to the disciples a couple of times, and then in John chapter 21, he appears to them while they're fishing. And it's interesting to me that they're fishing. Because if you think back, my Bible scholars in the room, you know the answer to this. At the beginning of Jesus' ministry, when he's calling the disciples, and he goes to this guy named Simon, son of John, and he renames him Peter, and he says, come and be my disciple. What was Peter doing? He was fishing. For three years while he followed Jesus, what did he not do anymore? Fish. Why? He had a new job. His new job was to follow Jesus. His new job was to be in ministry. His new job was to do what Jesus did, to go around telling people about Jesus, to cast out demons and to perform miracles and to teach the people of Israel about the Messiah that was now here. That was his new job. And so for three years, he hadn't done his old job. He walked away from that because that wasn't him anymore. But after Jesus dies and Peter is walking around with this shame because he let his Jesus down, what does he do? He goes back to his old job. He disqualifies himself. Peter should have been leading the church. Peter should have been gathering the disciples together and saying, hey, this isn't over. Jesus has risen from the dead. We need to continue to serve him. We need to continue to build his kingdom. We have a purpose. We're not done, guys. But instead, what does he do? He gets back in the boat. What I want us to see is that Peter allowed his shame to shrink his vision of what Jesus wanted him to do. He allowed his shame, he allowed what he had done and how badly he felt for it to shrink his vision about what Jesus wanted him to do. Jesus had purposed him and prepared him and groomed him to lead his church. It's what Jesus wanted him to do. It's why he was working with him for three years, why he was putting up with all of his Peter-isms so that he could lead the church. And Peter, because he felt bad, because he felt shame, he walked away from that. He disqualified himself, which in all honesty is the exact same thing that we would do. Would you look at Peter after he betrayed Jesus at the height of his need and go, yep, you're still the guy. You should still lead the church. Would you still want that guy to be in charge of everybody? Would you still want that guy leading the council of the disciples like he is in Acts along with James? Is that what you would still want? Wouldn't you think that Peter would need to enter into some sort of probationary period? Okay, you're good, Peter, but we're just going to keep our eye on you for a minute. Wouldn't you do what Peter did? Wouldn't you step away and kind of slink away quietly and be like, I'm so sorry that I messed up. I understand. I don't even expect you to reinstate me anymore. I'm just going to fish and I'm going to love on you the best I can. Wouldn't you expect that of Peter? Doesn't that seem like the fair human reaction? Don't we do that to ourselves? When we mess up and we know who we are, we know where we come from and we know the we bring into every room, and we know the things that are hiding in the corners and the shadows of our life. When we know those things, don't we do what Peter did and disqualify ourselves? Don't we allow our shame to shrink our vision for who we are and what God created us to do? Can I just tell you that I think the Bible teaches that every one of you who are believers were created, and the non-believers too, we're just waiting for you to get on board. You were created with a purpose and with a set of gifts, with the sole intention of building God's church. With the sole intention of going to heaven one day and on your way there bringing as many people with you as you possibly can. That's the only reason you're alive. It's the only reason you walk on the face of the earth. The Christian life is a progressive revelation of just how true that is. Hopefully you realize now it's more true than you did five years ago and hopefully more than 10 years ago. The only reason you're here, the only reason that Jesus doesn't snatch you into heaven the instant you are saved is to leave you here so that you can bring as many people with you as possible on the way. And I believe that God has imbued each of you with a set of gifts. I believe that God has uniquely prepared you in your life through the circumstances that you have walked through to be effective at reaching other people. And I believe that God has a big vision and a big plan for how he wants to use you in his kingdom. I believe those of you who have jobs that you are the pastors of those teams. That God has put you there to be a light in the dark places, to encourage the other light that is there and to cast light on those who might not know him yet. That simply by watching you, they may give glory to the Father who is in heaven. Those verses are all over scripture. But what do we do? We know our past. We know who we are. And so we allow our shame to shrink our vision of who Jesus created us to be. We excuse those things away. If I said that, I would never be believed. They're going to think I'm a hypocrite. Maybe we want to start a devotional with our kids at the house. Maybe we just want to start exposing our children to Scripture in the home, but then we have that thought, yeah, buddy, but you don't even read the Bible every day on your own, you hypocrite. Well, start then, and then start the Bible study, man. God has these things that I believe He wants us to do, that He's purposed us to do, but we back off of them because of our shame, because we know who we are. And then we just exist in these little holes. God, I'm not going to do that thing. I'm just going to be a fisherman. I'm just going to work in sales. I'm just going to work in accounting. I'm just going to have my job. I'm just going to do my thing. I'm going to go to church and be a good Christian. But that work that you have to do in the kingdom, that's for other people who haven't messed up. And listen, if that's true, if the only people who get to do ministry and get used in God's kingdom are those who have never let Jesus down, then the church would be run by four-year-olds, man. We've got just a slight upgrade here. But that's what we do. We allow our shame and how we feel about ourselves to shrink our vision about what God wants us to do, which is why Jesus's response to Peter is so amazing. Look at what Jesus says in John chapter 21. I'm going to read you the whole conversation and then we'll talk about it a little bit. Jesus had shown up. They were fishing out on the Sea of Galilee. And that's louder than normal. They were fishing out on the Sea of Galilee. They had been out all night. They hadn't caught anything, right? And then Jesus appears on the shore after they bring the nets in. Still not catching anything. And they don't know it's Jesus. It's just some dude. And he's like, hey, cast your nets on the other side of the boat, which is ridiculous. It's almost like making fun of them. The boat's like 12 feet wide. It's not going to make a difference when they put them on the other side of the boat. But for whatever reason, they listen to the guy, they do it, and then they catch more fish than they've ever caught in their life. 30 years later, 30-plus years later, old man John still remembers that they caught exactly 153 fish that day. That wasn't a big deal to John. They pull in the fish, they go in, they have breakfast together, and then Jesus sidles up to Peter for a conversation. This is the first one-on-one conversation that they have had since Peter's betrayal. And let me just ask you before we read the conversation, what would you expect Jesus to say in that moment? What would you expect the conversation to be? Put yourself in Peter's shoes. You did that to Jesus. You've betrayed him. Put yourself in your own shoes. Take yourself to the place where you feel like you've let Jesus down the most. And right after letting him down for however many upteenth times you've done it, he comes up to you. He sidles up next to you and he puts his arm around you and you and him have a conversation. What do you expect him to say? I would expect him to go to Peter. I would expect him to come to me and say, hey, are you sorry? Right? Jesus is good. He's gracious. I don't think that we would expect Jesus to just come down hard on us. We don't know that in his character. But I think we would expect him to put his arm around us and look at Peter and go, hey, Peter, are you sorry for what you did? Isn't this what we do with our children? When Lily messes up, I've got a three-year-old daughter named Lily, when she messes up, which is more frequently lately because she's three, and apparently that's what three-year-olds do. And she hollers and she gets mad. What do I do? I pick her up and I hold her right here. I calm her down. And I say, Lily, are you sorry? And she says, yes, Daddy. I go, okay. And I put her down. I say, go tell your mom you're sorry. We forgive you. Isn't that what we do? Isn't that what we would expect Jesus to do to us? Hey, are you sorry? And then we would expect to go, yeah, I'm sorry. And we would expect to hear him say to Peter, okay, you're forgiven. Because he's Jesus and that's what he does, right? You're forgiven. That's what we would expect. But look at what happens. Verse 15, when they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, Simon, son of John, do you love me more than these? Do you love me more than these fish? I see you've gone back to fishing. That's an interesting choice. I didn't know that you had a new career now. Do you love me more than these fish? Do you love me more than what you're doing? Interesting question. He said to him, yes, Lord, you know I love you. He said to him, feed my lambs. He said to him a second time, Simon, son of John, do you love me? He said to him, yes, Lord, you know that I love you. He said to him, tend my sheep. Verse 17, he said to him the third time, Simon, son of John, do you love me? Peter was grieved because he said to him the third time, do you love me? And he said to somebody put it, you done boogered up, son. He messed up bad. He felt terrible. And he walked away from what God called him to because he felt like he had disqualified himself for messing up. And Jesus goes and he finds him. And we would expect Jesus to say, Peter, are you sorry? That's not what he says. He says, Peter, do you love me? Do I still have your heart or has this sin taken it from me? Do you love me? He says, yes, of course I love you. He says, good. Feed my sheep. This is a remarkable statement. Because in John 10, Jesus paints himself as the good shepherd. And he says that the sheep are his flock or the church or people who believe in him. His sheep are the Christians. And so the shepherd looks after the Christians. And so what he's saying is, Peter, for three years you watched me do ministry. You watched me tend to my sheep. And I told you that you are Peter and on this rock I will build my church. I told you that one day I won't be here. When I'mores you. He doesn't just forgive Peter. He doesn't say, are you sorry? He says, do you love me? I know you're sorry. Because if you love me, then of course you're sorry. And then we would expect him to say, okay, you're forgiven, but sit over here in this probationary period. I'll keep an eye on you for a couple years and see if we can trust you again. That's not what he does. You're forgiven. You're restored. Go and do the thing I created you to do. Go and be the person I created you to be. He says, Peter, you may have disqualified yourself. You may have shrunken back from my plans for you, but I have not. I still have plans for you. I still want you to do these things. You are reinstated. You are restored. And he does it three times. I love the symmetry of those statements. How many times did Jesus deny Peter? Three. How many times did Jesus ask Peter if he loved him? Three. It's like he's saying, Peter, without even saying the words, Peter, do you love me? Yes, Lord, you know that I love you. You're forgiven. Go and work. Peter, do you love me? Yes, Lord, you know I love you. Then you're forgiven. Go and be who I created you to be. Peter, do you love me? Yes, Lord, you know that I love you. Okay, good, because that's three times that you said that. It's three times I've forgiven you. You can say it as many more times as you want to. I'll forgive you and restore you all those times. Now go and be who I created you to be. And I believe that he says the same thing to us this morning. I believe that he asks us the same question. Do you love Jesus? Grace, do you love Jesus? However mired in sin you might be, however much shame you might bring into the room, whatever might have happened in the past, whatever habits you bring, however many times you've made a commitment that you didn't keep, listen, put all that aside and let's just ask you grace. Do you love Jesus? Then go and be who he created you to be. Go and do the thing he purposed you to do. Say, but Jesus, I've done this and this and this. I'm not qualified. I used to be an addict. I used to do this thing. I'm mired in this right now. And Jesus says, listen, listen, listen, I'm not worried about that. Do you love me? Because if you love me, it means you're sorry. And if you've shrunk away, it means that you feel shame. And Jesus says, go and be the person that I created you to be. Go and do the thing that I intended for you to do. Quit disqualifying yourself. Quit feeling the shame that is not from me. And just answer the question, do you love me? Then go and do the thing that I purposed you to do. Go and feed his sheep. Go and build his church. Go and use the gifts that he's imbued you with. Go live out the reason that he leaves you here. Go and run your race. What I want you to understand this morning is Jesus is far more concerned with what he wants you to do than what you have done. He's already taken care of what you have done. He's removed that from you as far as the east is from the west. Because of that removal, you are free and have the freedom to operate in his love. And if you love him in return, then go and do the thing that he created you to do. Go and be who he created you to be. And that's where I would leave us at the end of the series in John with that simple question. After all the 12 weeks, after everything that we've experienced, after all that we've seen of Jesus, after what we know of him and how he loved us. Do you love him? Does he have your heart? If he does, grace. Go be who he created you to be. You're not just forgiven, you're restored. Let's pray. Father, we sure do love you. You sure are good to us. God, we can't fathom this idea that you would not just forgive us, but that you would restore us. Lord, if there are folks in here who walked into the room carrying a little bit of shame, God, if we are certain that if we could see you face to face, the first thing you would express in us is disappointment. God, I pray that you would take that from us today. That we would see that we are loved, that you care about us, that we would identify with Peter, not just in his betrayal, but in his restoration, that we would feel your arms around us, that we would simply respond to that question of, do we love you? Give us the faith to believe that you forgive us. Give us the eyes to see ourselves as you do. And give us the courage and the strength to go live out and be the people that you created us to be and do great things to the folks here at Grace. It's in your son's name we pray all of these things. Amen.