Sermons tagged with Identity

Well, good morning, First Service. My name is Nate. I am the lead pastor here. It's so good to see all of you. Thanks for being here on this May Sunday, on the last Sunday of our regular schedule. Next Sunday for Memorial Day weekend, we're going to go to our summer schedule and have one service that meets at 10 o'clock through the summer, and then we'll kick in two services again after Labor Day when things pick back up in September. So I'm kind of looking forward to the one big family feel that we can afford ourselves over the summer and the things that that's going to provide for us. So I'm excited about that. So again, next Sunday, 10 o'clock, if you get here at the 9.30 time, then we'll just hang out with you until the service starts. And my feelings won't be hurt if you leave 30 minutes early. Like right when the sermon starts, you just bolt because that's been your hour. That's fine. But that's going to be our summer schedule. I'm excited about that. This morning is the second part in our series about the Holy Spirit called The Forgotten God, because we talk a lot about God the Father. We learn a lot about God the Son. But in some church circles, in a lot of church circles, we often forget about the Holy Spirit. And so we wanted to take four weeks and slow down and focus our energy and our effort and our intellect on the Holy Spirit and what he does for us and what his ministry is to us. So last week, we started off by looking at this absurd statement that Jesus makes in John chapter 16, when he tells the disciples, and by extension us, hey, it's better for you that I go, that you don't have my physical presence next to you all the time, because if I don't go, then you will not receive the helper or the comforter that we know as the Holy Spirit. And that feels absurd, because we talked about, man, how much different would life be if we had Jesus right next to us all the time? But then we went through the reasons that that's true. And what we discovered is that it's better to have the Spirit because the Spirit is omnipresent and with us all the time. If I want to be in the presence of the Spirit and the Spirit is at your house, I don't have to convince Him to come to my house. He's in me. We are the temples of the Spirit. So He's with us all the time. And then we realize that the role or the job of the Spirit is to continue the ministry of Jesus, both through us in the form of spiritual gifts that we're going to talk about this morning, and to us as He grows us and sanctifies us. It takes us through the process of becoming more like God in character. That's his ministry to us. That's the roles of the Spirit that we're going to talk about next week. And then the last week, we're going to answer a really difficult question. How do we synthesize what we've learned about the Spirit with what we've experienced of the Spirit? Because sometimes those aren't the same things. But this week, we're looking at the spiritual gifts, how the Holy Spirit continues the ministry of Jesus through us. To do that, I want us to think about the idea of this word privilege, okay? And I don't mean privilege in the politically charged, like CNN, Fox way, where individuals may or may not be more than others. I don't mean that. I mean it in just the good old-fashioned way of, man, what a privilege this is to be doing this thing. When I think about privilege, I thought about a couple of weeks ago, somebody in the church, one of our great grace partners, who is now incidentally my favorite grace partner, emailed me and said, hey man, I've got four tickets to the Champions Club at PNC Arena for the Carolina Hurricanes' last home game. If they win this game, we may go to the playoffs. They're probably going to clinch the playoffs at this game. Would you like to come and bring some staff members? Yes, I would. I would love to. I don't care what sport is playing. When you say Champions Club with free buffet, I'm there. It can be women's field hockey. I'm in. Let's go. Right? So I went. We brought a couple other folks with us. And we get there. And you walk through the arena. Well, first of all, you park like right outside the arena. Like if they had valet parking, we would say, no thanks. This is better. Like you're right outside. It was unbelievable. And you walk in. You're walking through the arena. Like if they had valet parking, we would say, no thanks, this is better. Like you're right outside. It was unbelievable. And you walk in, you're walking through the arena, and then you get to this part where they have a concierge like behind these booths, and they're very important. And you give them like blood and urine and social security, and then they let you in, right? They let you in. And then once you're in, it's carpeted, and there's fireplaces and mahogany, and it is swanky, man. And then they have these buffets of food, so you don't have to pay $12 for the Cruddy Stadium Burger. Like, you get the buffet right there. And then all the ice cream and cookies that you can eat. They give you little tickets to go to the bar and get you a drink if that's what you want to do. You can, like, float out of there on Coke if you want to. It's amazing, right? And then you sit down. You get your food, and you go, and you sit down. And you're in these plush leather seats as you look at the ice and then the other peasants that don't get to sit where you get to sit. And this really ruined me. I don't think I can ever watch a hockey game with poor people again. But it was just an incredible experience, right? And, like, towards the end of the game, the team that they needed to lose lost, and the Hurricanes were winning, and then they scored another goal to kind of cinch the game, and the whole crowd knows, oh my goodness, we're going to the playoffs. I haven't been to the playoffs in a long time, so the place is going nuts, and it was super fun, and it was a really kind of electric atmosphere to be in. And the whole time, I thought, my goodness, I don't deserve this. This is too nice for me. You know, there's a proverb where Solomon says, if the king invites you to dinner, don't look at the food. Like, don't get used to that. That's going to suck you in. Like, don't get used to that. Keep your eye on what you can afford for yourself. And the whole time, I'm trying to remember this proverb, don't get used to this because you're one of those people, right? You don't deserve to be here. And then I thought, man, there are other people who love the Hurricanes so much that this would be a huge deal for them to be able to be a part of this excitement. And I'm not a Hurricanes fan. I mean, I watched the playoff games. I cheered for them. But I went to the gift shop that night and thought, I should get something And then I looked at like the $26 hat and I thought, I don't want this $26 worth. I want this about $12 worth. So then I left. So like, I'm not even a fan, but I get to be here, part of this electricity. And I realized, man, what a privilege this is. Because a privilege is something that you haven't earned and you don't deserve, but you get to experience anyways. You get invited into this experience anyways. And you guys have had different privileges in your life. We could probably all tell stories about times when we got to do a thing or meet a person or be in a conversation or have an experience that we kind of looked around and thought, gosh, I don't deserve to be here. This is really incredible. So as we think about this idea of privilege, life has some pretty great privileges. I think of parenthood. Parenthood's a phenomenal privilege, isn't it? We have a three-year-old daughter named Lily. And daily I'm reminded of the privilege that it is to be her parent. Like I'm the one that gets to watch her. Like right now we're learning to go to the bathroom the right way. And so she's celebrating and she gets her M&Ms and she's figuring that out on her own. And like we get to celebrate that with her and be happy with her as she does that. We're the ones that when she wakes up in the middle of the night, we get to comfort her. We're the ones that when she's scared, she runs to. When she gets here for the second service, she's going to see me and yell, Dad, and she's going to run to me, and it's going to be really fun. And what a great privilege it is to be the recipient of those hugs. And if you're a parent, then you know that parenthood is one of life's great privileges. Well, I want to submit to you this morning this idea that ministry is one of life's great privileges. Ministry, being involved in the building of the church, is one of life's great privileges. And here's what I mean. Jesus spent three years on this earth. He could have come into adulthood, lived a perfect life, died on the cross for us and go to heaven, but he spent three extra years on this earth, I am convinced, to train the disciples to do ministry, to build the church, to leave to them the keys to the kingdom and say, this is my kingdom on earth. It is your responsibility to grow it and nourish it and grow others and love people towards me. And then the disciples trained the next generation, and then they changed the generation after that. And it got passed on down as this holy responsibility, a holy mantle that we carry until each living generation of Christians, it becomes our responsibility to carry the mantle of ministry. That's why Peter says in his letters at the end of the New Testament that we, Christians, if you call God your Father and Jesus your Savior, then Peter tells you that you are a part of a holy priesthood, that you are a chosen nation, that you are cut from the same quarry as Abraham and David and Moses, and that it is your responsibility to carry on the ministry of Jesus. And when I talk about ministry this morning, it's an important thing to understand. I don't mean something that's organized. I don't mean vocational ministry, going pro and getting paid to be a Christian. I don't mean it like that. I don't mean something that's organized where you have to volunteer for something. I don't mean structured ministry. When I think of ministry, I think true ministry is simply loving others towards Jesus. When I say that we get invited into ministry by Jesus, when we get called to holy priesthood, when we get told that we are the torchbearers to carry on the legacy of the church, all I mean is nothing structured. All I mean is simply loving others towards Jesus. That's how we talk about ministry at Grace. That's what that means. And I believe it to be one of the great privileges in life for several reasons. One reason is this is God, the creator of the universe, who created you and knows the number of hairs on your head, who knows everything that's ever happened, and he is chiefly concerned with his kingdom and bringing other people into his kingdom and into a knowledge of him. That's his chief concern. That's what he wants. That's the whole reason you're left on this earth after you become a Christian is to bring as many people to heaven with you as you go, to love as many people towards Jesus with you as you possibly can on your way to spend eternity with God. That's the reason that we are here. And in ministry, Jesus has invited you in to participate in that plan. He's given you a front row seat to the most important thing happening in the universe. And here's the deal. He's going to get it done. The church is going to grow. And I hate to say it this way because I don't want to be overly flippant about it, but the church is going to grow with or without you. The church doesn't need your talent. Church doesn't need your money. Church doesn't need your intelligence. God doesn't need your ability. He's going to grow up with or without you. He's definitely going to grow up with or without me. But he's invited us in to participate in what he's doing. And that, to me, is amazing. He's invited us in to be conduits of the love that he shows us. He shows us a perfect love that is boundless, that is reckless, that knows nothing that can stop it. Nothing can take us away from that love. He offers that love to us and he invites us to be conduits of that love as we show it to other people. And I believe ministry to be one of life's great privileges because one of our biggest fears in life is to live a life that doesn't matter, right? One of our biggest fears in life, what all people do and what I've experienced in my friends and in my parents and in people that I've seen hit the back nine of life. I don't know how you define that. I don't want to throw out a decade and make anybody feel old. So people who begin to think about their legacy once they get through their really productive years, what do they always begin to think about? What's my legacy? What am I going to leave behind? What kind of difference has my life made? We want to know that we matter, and ministry ensures that our life matters. There's this great quote. I heard it from D.L. Moody, but it's attributed to a bunch of different people. But he said, one of the most tragic things in life you'll see is for someone to spend their entire life climbing the ladder of success only to get to the top and find that it was propped against the wrong building. Ministry insulates us against that. It makes us matter. It's an offer from God. Here's something that you can invest your life in that will matter for all of eternity. Here's a way to ensure that when you die one day and you look back on your life, you can be sure that you're sure that you're sure that it mattered that you invested your life well because he's invited you into the process of loving other people towards him. And I think that this promise, this insurance that our life will matter is incredibly important and maybe increasingly so in a world that lurches for ways to matter in all kinds of ways and screams out to everyone paying attention, we just want to matter. Jen and I were in New York City this last week, and it was very fun. It was pretty much an eating vacation. I walked about 11 miles a day and gained four pounds, so I don't know how I managed to do that, but it was fun. And one of the things we noticed everywhere we went, and as girls, I don't mean to pick on girls, but it was girls. It was girls posing for Instagram pictures. Everywhere. Like every tourist site that we went to, Central Park, we went to this thing called the Vessel at Hudson Yards, and everywhere we went, there was a couple of girls who were dressed nicer than everybody else there, had on the makeup and the hair and the fake eyelashes and the whole deal, and they're posing. They got their friend taking pictures of them. And they're posing like for all of these candids, you know, like that kind of thing, you know, and they're kind of like doing their hair. And Jen and I just started like, we laugh at it. We find them and we're just sitting over there going in this hilarious. But after a while, it started to break my heart because you know what those girls are saying? I want to matter. I'm going to post this somewhere. Will you please tell me that I'm pretty? This is how I gain my sense of worth. Will you please tell me that I matter? And we all do that in one way or another. We all preen to matter in one way or another. We all lurch for significance in one way or another. And ministry says, here, here's a way to ensure that your life matters and that it matters for all eternity. And I think intuitively we know that ministry is one of life's great privileges. I talked to Jen, who a lot of you guys don't know this, but Jen for her entire adult life has poured into groups of young girls, middle school, high school age girls. And I asked her, what brings you joy? What have been your privileges as you've done ministry? And we talked about one of her close friends, this girl named Elizabeth. When Jen got out of college, she began to teach fifth grade. And when those fifth grade girls graduated from elementary school and moved into middle school, Jen started a Bible study for them, and they would meet in her classroom early one day. And one of those girls was named Elizabeth. And Jen's gotten to watch Elizabeth grow into a young woman who loves the Lord, into a young woman who leads her own Bible studies and her own discipleship groups and pours into young women on her own. And she tells those young girls who have never met Jen some of the things that Jen shared with her. And so now there's multi-generational love and wisdom going on because Jen had the opportunity to pour her life into those girls. And she still gets texts from them and calls from them. And she still gets to celebrate with them. And she still gets to mourn with them. And when you minister to people and when you love on people, you get invited into these situations that feel like such a privilege, like, my goodness, I don't deserve to be here. This is incredible. We know experientially that when we minister, when God uses us in the life of others, we come alive. That's why I think it's one of God's great privileges that he offers us to be in ministry. The deal with ministry, however, once we become Christians and God says, okay, go grow the church, is that we're grossly unqualified to grow the church. We are grossly and radically unqualified to do ministry because ministry requires supernatural power. Someone has to realize that they're a sinner, that they need Jesus, and then come to Jesus and repent. Ministry is hard. Sometimes ministry requires saying the exact right word at the exact right time. Sometimes loving on people requires you to say challenging things to them that are really difficult and awkward and uncomfortable to say. Sometimes it means that you have to apply grace to them and not say the thing that you want to say because they need more time to develop on your own. Sometimes ministry means discerning between spirits so we really know what's going on here. Sometimes it means being able to explain the Bible in ways that are really difficult or difficult concepts that we're not sure what they actually mean. Ministry is difficult. Ministry works kind of like your first job. For most of us, we went to college, and after we went to college, we got our job. And at college, what'd they tell you they were doing? We're preparing you to go into the workforce. We're preparing you for your job. And then you get to your job, which is most of the time outside of your major, and you begin to work, and you realize oh my gosh, they did not prepare me for the workforce. I got to figure this out. And you do on-the-job training, right? Spiritual gifts that the Spirit gives us so that we can do ministry are God's on-the-job training. This is why we have spiritual gifts. God has called each of us to minister. He's invited us into and bestowed upon us the privilege of ministry, and he's acknowledging that we are grossly inept for this ministry, kind of like me finishing that sentence. We don't have what it takes sometimes, right? And so God acknowledges you don't have the expertise you need to do the job I want you to do. So here, through the Spirit, is a gift to make you more effective at ministry. And this is where we get the spiritual gifts. Now, the spiritual gifts we see at different places in the Bible. There's four or five places in the New Testament where they pop up. There's two really definitive lists, kind of more authoritative lists that we see in 1 Corinthians 12 and in Romans 12. And in your notes there, I've listed out some of the gifts that I found in those passages. In 1 Corinthians 12, we have a longer list. We have wisdom and knowledge, faith, healing, miraculous power, prophecy, discernment, tongues, interpretation, apostleship, teaching, and administration. And then in Romans 12, we have some of those and then some extras, right? And so those are the lists of the gifts. And I would say this about the spiritual gifts that God gives to us. These are not exhaustive lists. I don't think that Paul's intention when he begins to write the spiritual gifts, who's the guy that wrote these books, I don't think his intention was to make an exhaustive list of the gifts. I don't think he was trying to list all of them for you. I think he's more giving you categories of what they could be. I think it's possible that there's more gifts outside of what's mentioned here. I don't think either list is definitive. I've seen places where guys try or girls try to make one list more authoritative than the other, and I don't think that it's fair to do that. My personal view is that there's no exhaustive list in the New Testament of what the gifts are. But these are what he gives us, and he gives us these gifts, the Spirit does, so that we can continue the ministry of Jesus. And now every time you talk about spiritual gifts, you really have two questions. There's really two questions that come up in the church. If this is your first time hearing about the spiritual gifts, then maybe you're already forming these questions. If not, then you know how to anticipate these questions. What are they? Like, what are the gifts? What do they mean? How do we define them? And which one's mine? Right? That's what we want to know. We want to know how do we define these gifts and which one are mine? Which one's mine? Well, to answer those questions first, how do we define these gifts? How do we explain them? Some of these are pretty self-explanatory, okay? When it says the gift of serving, you are smart adults, most of you. You don't need me to explain to you what that is. It would be patronizing to do it. The gift of hospitality, what's that? You don't need me to explain that to you. You know. And I don't think it would be a very wise investment of our time to go down the list of gifts and tell you how to define them. You're pretty smart. You can figure it out. If you don't, Google's the thing. There are some, however, that are more confusing. Usually people want to know about the gift of tongues. That's one that we've heard. People speak in sometimes known languages, sometimes languages that we don't know that sound like utterances. What's the deal with those? How do we figure those out? And then we also want to know about this gift of prophecy. What's that mean? What are prophets? Do we still have them? How does that work? And so because I don't have time in this sermon to talk about those, and because that's really not the point of this sermon, what I'm going to do this week, sometime this week, is I'm just going to write up my thoughts on what the gift of tongues is and what the gift of prophecy is and how those work. And I would invite you, if you look through these lists or you can think of others that you've always had questions about that you'd like to know more about, write that on your connection card and put that in the offering when it comes by or email me and I'll add those into what I write up. Now, please, you can mention them to me in the lobby afterwards, but I'm just telling you on Sundays I forget everything. So if you mention it to me, I'll go, yeah, that sounds great. And then it will not be written up. Okay, so email me or put it on the connection card and I'll give some more detail to those this week. That's how we're going to address how do we define the gifts. But then the other question is, what's mine, right? What's my gift? And we like this question because it's about us. This kind of feels like the personality test that we like to click on on Facebook, right? This is like, which friend are you? Are you Ross or Rachel or maybe Chandler? Like, what color is your personality? Like, what's your spirit animal? And we don't tell anybody. Like, we take the test and it says, do you want to publish to Facebook? Lord, no, I don't want to publish to Facebook. I don't know why. I don't want anybody to know that I actually spent 15 minutes doing this and learned that I was a horse. Like, that's not what we want to do. And so when we see spiritual gifts, we approach it the same way. Ooh, which one am I? And we actually did this, a church that I used to work at, we did a series on the Holy Spirit. And whenever you do a series on the Holy Spirit, you do a sermon on the spiritual gifts as part of the deal. And we covered it like that. And at the time I was younger in ministry and my job, what was assigned to me was to find a test that everybody could take so that we could send you to a website and you could take a test and then you would know how best to serve at that church. And it all felt just very self-serving and kind of ridiculous. And the truth of it is, when I got online to look for these tests, they were all stupid. There were none of them good. They were all ridiculous. I ended up calling them spiritual preference tests. What do you want to do? Everybody comes out with the gift of teaching, right? It's silly. And it was self-serving because the gifts are not about serving the local church. It's about serving the big C church. That's what they're for. And the more I looked at it and the more I examined the passages, the more I realized Paul's goal here is not to help you figure out which one you are. It's the reason why we spent 20 minutes on the introduction of ministry as an incredible privilege and the last 10 minutes on spiritual gifts when the sermon's supposed to be about spiritual gifts. Because guess what? It's not really about the spiritual gifts. If you look at the passages where he's talking about them, in 1 Corinthians 12 and in Romans 12, in both passages, the context around the spiritual gifts is, hey, we are a body. We are the church, and we have a job. Incidentally, it's why at Grace we have partners, not members, because we believe that we are a part of the body and that we are partnering together for ministry, for the purpose of loving other people towards Jesus. And in both chapters where he talks about the gifts, Paul is saying we are part of a body and we have a job and we are to build the kingdom of God through the church. And everybody has a part to play. Everybody's been invited in. Everybody is a part of the royal priesthood. And to some people, he gives the gift of serving and to others, hospitality, and to others, contributing, and to others, teaching, and to others, leading, and to others, mercy, which is my gift, and to others, compassion, which is another one of my strong suits, right? That's what he gives people. And the whole point of it is so that we can build the church together. The point is not which gift do I have? The point is you have the gift of ministry. That's the point. In fact, following this in 1 Corinthians 12, he talks about all the gifts at length. There's two different sections where he mentions them. He says, but those are the gifts and those are great and you should desire those. But then he finishes 1 Corinthians 12 this way. He says, and I will show you a still more excellent way. And then he opens up with the famous love chapter in 1 Corinthians 13. If I speak in tongues of men and of angels but have not love, I'm a noisy gong or a clinging cymbal. And he goes through and he lists the gifts. If I have prophecy, if I can teach, if I can do all these things, but I have not love, then my life doesn't matter. And it is not the point. The gifts are not the point. The point is loving on others. And then he goes into the love passage and defines it. Love is patient and is kind. It does not envy. It does not boast. It keeps no record of wrongs. And then in the end, it says it believes all things, it hopes all things, it endures all things. Love never fails. The whole point of him going through the gifts is him showing you that you've been invited into the privilege of ministry, gifted to do the ministry of loving on other people, which is the whole point anyways. I feel like we always miss the point when we approach the spiritual gifts because we go, what do they mean and which one's mine? And that's not the point of any of the passages where they're mentioned. The point is that we're called into ministry to go love on other people. I do still think it's important to know what our gift is, but if you really want to know what your gift is, don't go take a test. That's a waste of time. You'd have more fun figuring out which animal you are. If you really want to know what your spiritual gift is, then go love other people. And what you'll find is that your gift is what others affirm in you as you love them. Don't worry about what your gift is. What's my gift? Am I serving? Am I compassionate? Am I hospitality? Am I teaching? Am I leadership? Don't worry about that. Just go love people. The people that are in your life, go love them towards Jesus. That's your ministry. Go love them towards Jesus. And as you love them towards Jesus, they will affirm in you what your gift is. I can only share with you my own path through that realization. As far back as I can remember doing ministry, I was invited to teach in different settings. Nothing big or extravagant. I mean, I've shown up to a lot of 6 a.m. FCA's where there's 20 kids who don't care. I've talked to a lot of youth groups. I've done youth group retreats with like 18 kids in North Georgia woods. Like I've showed up to a lot of places to teach, but I kept getting invited to teach. And people would affirm in me, hey, that was effective. You were good at that. And I began to suspect that maybe that's how the Spirit has gifted me. But honestly, I'm so uncomfortable with that. It took me a long time to maybe kind of admit that maybe that's how the Spirit has gifted me. Now, some of you are sitting in here and you're going, dude, this is super boring. This is not your gift. And you may be right. We may find that out together as we go down in flames of glory here in a couple of years. Who knows? But enough people began to say, hey, that was effective. Hey, you're good at that. Hey, I appreciate that. But at some point or another, I quit fighting against it and just acknowledged, I think maybe my gift is teaching. And that's what I need to do. But you don't need to worry about what your gift is on the front end. Just get busy loving people towards God. And they will affirm in you whatever your gift is. And that's how you'll identify it. And what I want us to see as we think about the spiritual gifts and how often we miss it and go, oh, what's mine? How do I do this? What do they mean? How do we talk about them? We miss the point. When we think about spiritual gifts at Grace, I want us to think about them in this way. Spiritual gifts are an affirmation of and an invitation into the privilege of ministry. If we believe ministry to be one of the great privileges in life, to be invited into the lives of others, to be able to be the person that they call on when they mourn, to be the person that they call when they don't understand something, to be the person that gets to celebrate with them when they get pregnant or when their kid does something great or when they get a promotion. If we want to be invited into people's lives in that way, if we want to love on people in that way, if we want our life to matter, to know for certain that it's going to matter and that what we're going to do will ring for all of eternity, then we believe that ministry is a privilege. And we understand that the gift that the Spirit gives us to be more effective at that ministry is an affirmation of the fact that we are saved, that he calls us his child, and that we are to be used in that ministry, and it is an invitation into one of life's great privileges. So here's what I want you to do this morning in light of the spiritual gifts. I want to ask you, what's your ministry? Not organized, not structured, your ministry is not the coffee bar. Now that's a way to love on people, but let's not reduce your life to that. The people who serve the coffee are lovely, wonderful people. They are far more capable of other things besides brewing coffee. On some Sundays, they're not very capable of brewing coffee. Am I right? Not today. Today it's good. That's right, baby. What is your ministry? Meaning, who has God called you to love? Who is it that God has placed in your life that you are to love towards him? Sometimes it's structured. It's your small group. It's the kids that you volunteer to lead and to watch. It's the students that you pour into. It's the other people on your board or on your committee. Sometimes it's unstructured. It's the people at work. It's your family. It's your friends. It's your tennis team. It's the folks you hang out with. But I think this morning the question is not, what is my gift? But it's a realization of, man, I have been invited into one of the great privileges of life. And as I'm invited into that privilege of loving others, God, who have you assigned to me to love? And in that way, we are all ministers. And if you're not sure who that is, then my encouragement to you this week is to just beg the Spirit to show you. Who do you want me to love? Who do you want me to love? Who do you want me to love? And as you get busy loving other people towards Jesus, they will affirm in you whatever your gifting is, and you can lean into that more and more and experience the joy in being exactly who you were created to be. All right. I'm going to pray, and then we're going to continue with the service. Father, thank you for loving us. Thank you for your spirit. Thank you for the gift of ministry, for the gift of being conduits of your love to other people. Lord, I pray that we would get to, all of us, experience the incredible privilege that it is to be used by you. To know that you're using us in a way that makes our life matter. To know that you're using us in a way that when we get to the end of our days, we will look back and know and get to say like Paul did, that we were poured out like a drink offering. Father, I pray that you would show us who to love, that you would give us the courage to love them well, that you would gift us exactly how we need to to love them effectively, that we would be comfortable with whatever shape that love takes based on how you've wired and gifted us. God, I pray that Grace Raleigh would be a place where other people feel loved. I pray for those who go on from this place to different areas, God, that they would love people there as well. It's in your son's name we ask these things. Amen.

Well, good morning, Grace Raleigh. Good morning. Oh, thank you. First service didn't do that. So, appreciate it. Nice, warm welcome. As Nate said, I am Erin. I'm one of the pastors here, and I am beyond thrilled to be up here this morning. I'm getting a chance to kind of hang out with you. You know, there's a calendar kind of in the preaching world, and that's very interesting. And so Nate just did 12 weeks on John, and then he starts next week with the forgotten God. So there was this blank Sunday that just kind of sat in the middle. And so I get to be that middle, which is a really cool place to be. But I also meant that I got the chance to kind of pick what I wanted to talk about, which is even cooler yet. So not being part of the series, I get the opportunity to do my thing. I'm not alone kind of wrapped up the John series, and I was caught at that moment by this interaction between Peter and Jesus. As he wrapped up the John series, he talked a whole lot about Peter's restoration, and there's this moment that after Peter has denied Jesus, Jesus has died, he's risen, he comes back to his followers, and he has this really sweet moment with Peter. And he says, Peter, do you love me? And Peter's response is, yes, Lord, you know I do. And at that point in time, Jesus looks at him and he says to Peter, then go and be who it is that I created you to be. Stop dis believing a lie that somehow his past and all that he had done previously was disqualifying him for being all that God had created him to be and to do. And so I wonder who else out there has actually believed this lie? Because like I know I have. About seven years ago or so, I joined Grace Raleigh's staff team as an interim. I came on, I was a long-term volunteer inside of the kids program and there was a need and they tapped me and said, you're going to come do this, right? And I said, excuse me, long-time volunteers take that into consideration what happens. So they tapped me. I said, yes. I stepped in as the interim and about thinking, you know, they're going to hire somebody else and we're all good. Well, nine months later, there's still no director. And at this point in time, God is starting to do a little work in my heart that says it's time for you to step up and to make application. Wrong. That was my response to God. I actually looked at him. I kind of unrolled this long litany of reasons why I was not the right person to do this job. Here, let me tell you why, Lord. Let's see. I work already with my husband. I have two kids at home. I have to shuttle them back and forth. Let's see what else. Oh, wait. These might be biggies. I don't have a degree. I have no seminary training. I am not your girl. Thank you. End of discussion. And so again, like Peter, I'm choosing to believe that because I don't have a piece of paper or I don't have some sort of, pedigree that I can't be used by God in the way that God wants me to be used. I have somewhere, somehow forgotten who God is and who he has said that I am. So Grace Raleigh, what lies are you guys believing currently? Are you a parent who maybe looks at your kids and goes, Lord, why? Like, why did you trust me with these kids? I yell. I know I'm somehow going to warp them. They're going to come out rotten children. Or maybe, yeah, I've done it, y'all. I have said that in my head before. Lord, please don't let me warp them. But or maybe you're the parent that believes that your child's poor choices are somehow a reflection of you and your parenting skills. Or maybe you're in a relationship. Spouse, not a spouse. Maybe you're just in a relationship. And you're all of a sudden looking at this going, we've got a problem. I can't be this spouse. I come from a broken home, which means that ultimately my home's going to be broken too because I don't have what it takes to be the good wife or to be the good husband. Or maybe there's a broken relationship between you and your parents and you're like, done. End of story. I've done way too much. I can't make that connection again with them. Whatever it may be. Or maybe, just maybe, you're sitting in this room going, but Erin, my past is just too colorful. It's too full of sin. It's too full of mistakes. There's no way that God could possibly use me and all of my baggage. So today what I want to do is I want to introduce you to a guy. His name is Gideon. And Gideon is just like us. He's living in this place of being doubtful of who he is. He's living in this place of fear and saying there's no way that he can be used by God. So today we're going to hang out in Judges chapter 6. So if you want to grab your Bibles, you can do that to follow along. You don't have to. We'll throw scripture on the screen. It's totally up to you. But Judges chapter 6 is where we're starting. So let's give you a little background to help maybe understand where Gideon was. Judges chapter 6 is a place where we meet the Israelites or see the Israelites, which were God's chosen people. And they're in between Joshua, who led them into the promised land, and then their king in Saul. So they're in this period where there's not really a leader or a ruler, and so they're kind of left on their own. They're hanging out in this land that God's provided for them. So it should be a great place. But there's also other people that live in this land. And the other people that live in this land follow other gods and do bad things, for lack of a better word. And so what happens in Judges is this moment with the Israelites were left to their own accord. They start to follow the ways of the others. They start to worship other gods and they start to do, as scripture put it, what's evil in the sight of the Lord. Well, as you and I both know, the Lord doesn't sit really well with all of that. So he takes them and he says, okay, well then it's time for a little punishment. He sends in an oppressor. They spend a period of time with the Israelites, pushing the Israelites down to a point where they then all of a sudden, at a point of desperation, they cry out to God and say, save us. And because our God is so merciful, he looks at them and says, okay. He sends them a judge. The judge helps them to defeat their oppressors. There's peace in the land. And then the judge dies. And guess what happens? It starts all over again. In our house, when my kids were little, we called this the vicious cycle. Somebody's got to be willing to hop off or the cycle continues, right? So Israel, though, isn't willing their oppressors. And so the Israelites lived in this beautiful, fertile valley. They would go in and they would plant their crops and they would raise their animals and the world was just fabulous. And then guess what? Here comes time for harvest. And instead of seeing the Israelites go into their valley and do their harvest, you saw them run in, grab what they could possibly grab, and run for the hills. They'd hide in caves and cower in fear because if you looked to the east, here comes the Midianites and all of their friends. It wasn't just the Midianites. It was the Midianites and all of their friends. They decided to have a party. They would come in and drop into this valley. And once they were there, they ate all of the grain. They took their animals. Then, because they were so numerous in number, and Scripture states that you couldn't count them. There were so many of them. They would in turn just destroy the land. Once it was done, there was nothing else for them to plunder. They would pick up camp and they would leave. Our poor Israelites would then come back out of the mountains down into this desolate hole where it's laid waste. There's nothing. And they'd have to start over again. So here they are. And when we see them, they're in the seventh year of this. Somehow after year one or two, I would be like, hey, God, help me out. But no, they're a little prideful, a little stubborn. Seven years into this, they're still at this place of desperation. I imagine they're tired. They're hungry. And so they finally come to a place where they cry out and say, hey, God, can you come help me? Because we're kind of done here. We've got nothing, absolutely nothing left in us. And so that's where our God, because he's so wonderful, begins this process of sending to them their next judge. And so when we pick up in verse 11, we meet the angel of the Lord and Gideon. The angel of the Lord is hanging out underneath the tree. And our friend Gideon is in a wine press hiding from the Midianites and actually beating wheat. There's a couple interesting things about this passage. First of all, the angel of the Lord is there. But Gideon doesn't see him, y'all. It just states that the angel of the Lord is just kind of hanging out underneath a tree. Gideon's hanging out in his hole in the ground. And so why is it that he doesn't recognize him? We're not sure. The rest of the places in scripture talk about the fact that when an angel appears, everybody gets excited and then they end up on their face because they know it's an angel. They know it's come from the Lord. They have this knowledge. At this point in time, Gideon's clueless to the fact that he's even sitting there. And what we see is that we see that Gideon is hanging out and hiding in his wine press, beating wheat against a wall. And what's so interesting about that is the fact that during the normal harvest, when the wheat was cut off, it was actually supposed to be taken to a place called the threshing floor, which would have been up on a mountain or up on a high hill, completely out in the open. And so what they would have done is they would have taken all of this wheat, they would have thrown it onto the ground. They then would have brought in like an ox and had this ox run circles, stamping it out so that they were separating the chaff and the grain and getting it all chewed up, for, again, lack of a better word. And so then what would happen is that after all that, they'd reach down, they'd grab it, they would throw it in the air. And at that point in time, all the useless chaff, the wind would blow away, the grain would fall to the ground, they could collect the grain and then take it off the store to use for food later. Well, guess what? Gideon, y'all, is in a winepress in a hole. A winepress was a hole in the ground. It's not out in the open. There is no wind around it. He's literally hiding in a hole. There's no ox. There's nothing that you would normally have to do this process. Instead, he has his little shoots and stalks of wheat, and he's beating them against a wall trying to get them to separate. So it's this moment where you see Gideon at this place of desperation. He's trying very, very hard inside of his little hole in the ground to do all the work himself, to find just a little something for his family. They're tired. They're hungry. But his circumstances have gotten himself so desperate and so overwhelmed that he doesn't know what else to do anymore. So he's going to try to do something. So where is it that, like, we get stuck in those moments when we feel like we're in this place and we've got these circumstances that are just us down, and we're like, the only thing I can think to do, and you grab at straws, literally, just trying to do something to improve your situation. But the really cool part is, and you'll see in the next verse, in verse 12, this is where God meets us so very often, is in our wine press. Because verse 12 states that the angel of the Lord appeared to Gideon. Why all of a sudden Gideon looks up and realizes that there's an angel standing in front of him, we don't know, but it just states that he did. They make eye contact, and the angel looks at him and says to Gideon, the Lord is with you, oh mighty man of valor. Some of y'all's verses may actually call him a mighty warrior. I'm sorry, at this moment I thought about what was running through Gideon's head, and I can only hear him going, can I interrupt for just a minute? Did you not notice, A, I'm a farmer, and B, I'm hiding in a hole right now. There's really nothing, absolutely nothing about me that you would call courageous or mighty. And then he also proceeds to say in verse 13, he's going to have to argue just a little bit with God at this point about the fact that he says the Lord is with him. And when I read this passage, I thought wine, like whiny. I was like, hmm, because Gideon says to him, please, my Lord, if the Lord is with us, why then has this happened to us? Why? Like, can you hear that? Like in your head, He's like, but why is this happening to me? And why is the Lord allowing all of these bad things to happen? Do we not do that sometimes? Like, come on. Why me? Why? Why? So he asks all these. He asks these questions. And the Lord responds to him in the next verse. But the Lord says to him, What do you notice there? He didn't respond to the why. He didn't respond to sweet Gideon's little rant about, like, why am I in this position? And, y'all, it's really the best thing that I can come up with as I read through this is that he did it because, Gideon, you know why you're here. Y'all have done evil on the side of the Lord. You've been doing it for seven years now. That's kind of why you're stuck in this place. So you know the answer to this. But I don't want you to think about what's happened in the past. What I want you to do is focus on the fact that go in this might of yours and do what I've called you to do, and that's to defeat the Midianites. Which is all cool, because here God is seeing a potential in Gideon that Gideon has never seen in himself and probably never will unless. But he chooses at this point in time not to believe these words that God speaks. Because Gideon is still stuck in his wine press. He's still in this place where his circumstances are still so heavy on him that he can't, for anything, see past those. He can't see that mighty man of valor that God says he is. And so what he does is he then replies to God with his list of excuses. Just like we have ours, Gideon responds in turn with his list of excuses. Excuse me, Lord. Hey, remember I'm a farmer. I'm not a soldier. So there's one. And let's see. Oh, my clan that I belong to happens to be the weakest in the area. If you didn't know that already. And oh, wait, here's the cherry on top. I am the weakest in my family. So there is nothing about me that's mighty, and I just can't do what it is that you want me to do. So again, Gideon, just like we are, has this huge line of excuses as to why he can't do what it is that God says he can do. But thankfully, we serve a very merciful and very patient God because he turns and he says to Gideon what I would say are five of the most life-giving words in the Bible. And those words are, I will be with you. So keep up your excuses, but I will be with you. When he calls us, he's going to provide us with anything and everything that we need. Those places where we're the weakest, he's going to give us the strength to do what it is that he has called us to accomplish. Because guess what? It's through his strength then that he's glorified. Because if it was through our strength, God's not the one getting the glory. It becomes all about us and not about him. There's some really cool moments where this I will be with you pops up. Moses, God calls him and says to Moses, Hey, I need you to go be my mouthpiece with Pharaoh and free my people from Egypt. And Moses looks at him and he's like, Have you not heard me talk? Y'all, I have a small speech impediment, God. God says, no problem. I will be with you. And then when Joshua, now all of a sudden is charged with taking the Israelites into the promised land. That wasn't what was supposed to happen. Hey God, it was supposed to be Moses. Like what? God says, it's okay. Just like I was with Abraham and how I was with Moses, I will be with you. If you go into the Psalms and you read through, the Psalmist tells us over and over and over again, the Lord is with you. The Lord will be with you. And Paul speaks of a time when he's in Corinth speaking to a whole group of people. He's got all of this oppression on all sides. And it's hard. And he's in one of those places where the circumstances are starting to do this. God appears to him in a dream and says to him flat out, don't stop speaking. I will be with you. Wow and wow. Because the thing is right here, these guys all believed it too. They all heard God say it and then they believed it. And you can't do it if you don't believe it. Gideon, you are a mighty man of valor. You are going to defeat the Israelites. Gideon's still in his hole. He hears this again and again, and he has to make a choice. Is he going to believe that I will be with you and step out of his hole? Or is he going to stay there with his overwhelming circumstances and just continue to try to do things in his own might and his own power? Because see, the thing is, is that our capabilities are directly proportioned to our beliefs. What we can accomplish through God or God can accomplish through us is directly proportioned to what we believe. And so here it is. If we choose to believe what the world tells us about who we are, we're not good enough. We're not strong enough. We don't have the right pedigree. Whatever the lie is, if we choose to believe that lie, then what God can accomplish through us is totally limited. But if we instead choose to believe and operate in who God says we are, then what God says and what he can do through us is limitless. And as I was doing some research, I found this excerpt from a book called What God Thinks About You. Just listen and a worker. And through Jesus, you are victorious. You have a glorious future believe that through Christ we're victorious and that we are an ambassador for his son, what he can do through us is limitless. It puts us in this cool place for his power and his glory to be shown. And you know, seven years ago when I took that step of faith, it was a step of faith and I had to make a choice. And I promise you, though, each day for the last seven years, I've had to rely very heavily on the I will be with you. Because guess what? Nothing about my circumstances or my situation has changed. I still don't have some advanced degree. My kids are different now. So you can take that one into consideration. They're all older and on their own in a lot of cases, but I don't have the things that should or that the world says I should have, especially to stand up here in front of y'all today. But I had to choose to believe who God said I was, and I have to choose to believe in him and his, I will be with you. So if your capabilities, Grace Raleigh, are in direct proportion to your beliefs, what are you all believing today? Are you going to believe what the world says? Or are you going to choose to believe, like Gideon did, that who God says you are? Because that just might mean that somewhere along the lines, he may look at you and call you my mighty man or woman of valor. Will you all pray with me? Lord, thank you. Thank you that you love us and that you promise that when we step out in obedience to what it is that you have called us to do, that you will walk with us. We just ask that you don't allow us to believe the world, that you don't allow us to hear the voices that tell us that we're not good enough, but instead we hear all of those voices that tell us that because of you, we are victorious. And we love you. And it's in your son's name we pray.

All right, well, good morning. It's good to see all of you. I know those lights hit you, they're bright, goodness gracious. My name is Nate. I am one of the pastors here, and it's so good to see you. Thanks for being here for the second service and for the last part of our series in John. When we started the series in February, this is, I think, 12 weeks, so it's been one of our longer ones, but I hope that you've enjoyed it. I hope, and my prayer for you has been that you now, as we leave the series, feel a little bit closer to Jesus than you did when we started, that you know him better than you did when we started. I know that there are some themes from the book of John that I will probably always remember that stuck out to me as we went through it as a church this time around. I hope that you can relate to that. Originally, when we had planned the series, we wanted to end it on Easter. At the end on Easter Sunday, that'd be the resurrection story. That's the end of the story of Jesus. Boom, we're done. It's a nice, clean, tidy ending. But as I was studying the book, there's a story in John that's unique to the book of John. It's not in the other gospels, Matthew, Mark, or Luke. It's just in John almost as an addendum. And it's the restoration of Peter. And it's to me one of the most hopeful, life-giving, inspiring, restorative messages and stories that we find from the life of Jesus. And so I thought if it's good enough to be an addendum for John, then it's good enough to be an addendum for grace. And so we came back one extra week in John to look at this story of the restoration of Peter. To appreciate the story, we need to understand what goes into this moment. Eventually, we're going to get to John chapter 21. So if you have a Bible, you can turn there and we're going to be at the end of that chapter. If you don't have one, there's one in the seat back in front of you. If you don't like that option, there's a free one on your phone just seconds away. All right. To understand the story at the end of John, we need to understand who Peter was and what's going on in that story. Peter was kind of the de facto leader of the disciples. Many people think he was probably the oldest disciple. He was, some believe, the only one with a wife when they were called. He was a little bit further on in life than the rest of the disciples were. Peter was one of these guys that would always talk first and think later. He was a ready, fire, aim kind of guy. He's my people. I understand Peter, right? When Jesus walks on the water, what does Peter do? He jumps out of the boat. Well, shoot, I'm doing this too, right? Peter always just said things with confidence and everybody around him was like, well, I guess that's right. Jen asked me, my wife asked me sometimes, like, how do you say things with so much confidence? Like, how do you know that to be true? And I'm like, I don't. I'm just saying it. And people seem to go along with things. That's Peter, man. I can relate to him. He just always the first to answer, always the first to have the idea, always out front, kind of regardless of consequences. One of my favorite stories to kind of illustrate the character of Peter, one day Jesus decides, he gathers the disciples together and he says, hey, you guys, I'm going to wash your feet today. Which is like, that's the lowest of the low job. That's like the summer intern as the servant job. That's what you do. And so Peter, responding with some pomposity, with some piety, says, no, Jesus, never. I can never let you wash my feet. I will never let that happen. And Jesus looks at him and he says, okay, Peter, but unless I wash your feet, you cannot enter into the kingdom of God. And then Peter immediately does a 180. Well, then don't stop at my feet. Wash my head and my hands as well. Like that's Peter, okay? And so at the Last Supper, right before Jesus is arrested and tried and crucified, the last time they spend some good time together, Jesus looks at Peter, the leader of the disciples, and he tells him, before the rooster crows in the morning, you will have denied me three times. And Peter's response is what you would expect Peter's response to be. Never, Lord. I would never deny you. I would not do that. And Jesus says, you're going to. And Peter says, this is a loose paraphrase, agree to disagree, which you never want to agree to disagree with Jesus. You're not in a good spot when that's what you choose. So they leave. Jesus goes and he prays. He brings Peter to pray with them, but Peter falls asleep. John falls asleep. James falls asleep. And then Jesus gets arrested, and he's taken off to the courtyard of the high priest, a guy named Caiaphas. And three weeks ago, we talked about this in the crucifixion story. It was in the courtyard of Caiaphas where Jesus is put on trial, and there were two disciples that actually followed him there. The rest of the disciples dispersed. They ran away. They started worrying about their own necks, and so they ran away to hide so that they wouldn't get arrested too. They figured if they're arresting Jesus, then they're coming for us next, right? And so they all dispersed except for two disciples, Peter and another unnamed disciple, make it to the courtyard of Caiaphas' house. And it's in this courtyard that Jesus was put on trial, that he was falsely accused, that they told lies about him. The one person who's ever existed who deserved this treatment least was getting this treatment. They were blindfolding him and punching him and saying, who hit you, Jesus? You're a prophet. Prophesy about who hit you. And then Jewish tradition says that they were ripping out his beard. So he's beaten up and he's in a moment where he is incredibly loved. This is a man that Jesus has followed every day for three years. He loves this man. He cares for nothing on earth more than this man, and now he's watching him suffer in this way. And Peter's around a campfire as this is happening. And when he gets there, the Bible says there's a servant girl who looks at him and says, hey, don't you know him? Aren't you like in his little group? And Peter says, no, I've never met the man. That's one. A little while later, somebody else says the same thing. Hey, haven't I seen you with him before? Peter says, no, I don't know what we're talking about. I've never met the man. That's twice. And then the Bible says about an hour after that, someone really begins to press him. Hey, aren't you from Galilee? I can tell by your accent, you have to know that man. And Peter gets emphatic. No, I swear I've never met him. And then it says that this is actually, there's this passage in Luke. That's to to me, one of the most intense passages in Scripture. It's something that you may have read before, but we kind of gloss over it. But look at what it says in Luke. Chapter 22, verse 60, it says, But Peter said, Man, I do not know what you are talking about. That's the third time. And immediately while he was still speaking, the rooster crowed. And then verse 61, and the Lord turned and looked at Peter. Can you imagine? Can you imagine? The time when Jesus most needed people around him who loved him. You are his leading disciple and you just denied him three times because you're scared. And his bloody face turns and looks you dead in the eye. Peter remembered the saying of the Lord how he said to him, before the rooster crows you'll deny me three times. And he went out and he wept bitterly. Can you imagine how Peter must have felt? He had betrayed his Jesus. He had let him down. He had denied him. He had told Jesus over and over again, you can count on me. For three years, Jesus had been prepping him and training him and grooming him to take over the church, to step into his ministry. He was to see Jesus and to help lead the church after Jesus' death. And in the moment when he most needed him, he betrayed him and he let him down. And Jesus turned and looked at Peter. You cannot imagine that eye contact. It says he went away and he wept bitterly. I love this story because I so identify with Peter. And to me, if you're a believer, if you're a Christian, then you can identify with him too. If you're here this morning and you're not a Christian, then the good news is that you don't have to feel bad about any of this. You can just take it all in and watch us as we squirm and feel bad. But if you're a believer, then you know this feeling too. If you're a believer, then you know what it is to feel like you've betrayed Jesus, don't you? Has there ever been a time in your life, maybe in a corporate setting, maybe around some clients, maybe with some new friends that you've made, maybe with some old buddies where you kind of fall back into who you used to be, where you took that part of your identity, your Christianity, and you kind of tucked it away back here and kind of didn't wear it on your sleeve for that week or for that night or for that season because you didn't really want them to know who you were associated with? Have you ever in your life tucked away your identity as a believer because you were kind of ashamed and embarrassed if people were to find out that that's who you were because you had not been acting that way? Can I just tell you? I hope that you don't get too disappointed in me for this, but I've been doing ministry for about 20 years. There have definitely been times in my life when because of how I had been acting or what I had been saying or doing or whatever it was, I kind of tucked away my identity as a pastor. I didn't really want to share it with the group of people that I was with. So when Peter betrays Jesus and denies knowing him, I can relate. When we get this sense of betrayal, I've let my Jesus down. To be a Christian is to be familiar with that. I think we've all had different times and different seasons where we feel like we've let Jesus down a little bit. Maybe we've told him. Maybe we've been moved in worship. Maybe we've been moved by a sermon, probably at another church, and we decided that what we were going to do, we were going to start a new discipline. We were going to start a new thing. We had been moved to conviction. And we say, yes, Jesus, I'm going to get up and I'm going to read the Bible. I'm going to get up early. I'm going to make time for you. I'm going to spend time in prayer. I'm going to spend time in your word. That's going to be a discipline in my life. And so we get up and we start to read it. We're following along, but maybe we don't really understand it. We don't hear the angels audibly sing. And so we think we must be doing it wrong. Or we wake up and we kind of do the drop and flop. Like, Jesus, you just show me what you want me to read. And it turns out that because Psalms is in the middle and it's the longest book in the Bible, that God wants us to read Psalms like a lot. So we just, we read that, right? And we don't really know what's going on or what's happening. And for whatever reason, we fall away from that discipline. And then we've told Jesus for however many times, this is going to be a part of my life. And then we fail. And we betray him and we let him down. Or we tell him that we're going to start to give. We understand that believers should give generously, that we should be conduits of God's generosity to us, that we're stewards of the resources that he gives us, and that we should be generous to those that we think Jesus would want to help and serve. And we commit to do this, but things come up and then we don't, and we fall away from that discipline or from that commitment. And we hesitate to even make the commitment again because we messed up the last time, and we don't have much reason to believe that we're going to do better the next time. Right? Or we have things in our life that we don't want there. And so we tell Jesus, I'm done with that. I'm drawing the line in the sand. I'm not going to do that thing again. I'm moved. I'm convicted. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for who I am. I don't want that to be a part of my life. I don't want that to be a part of who I am. Jesus, I'm done with that. I'm moving on by the power of your spirit. Please allow me to be done with that thing. And we move away from that thing. And then three days later or weeks later or maybe months later, we fall back into the thing. So I wonder this morning, have you ever felt like you've betrayed Jesus? Can you relate to Peter? Aren't you glad that in the moment of the height of your betrayal, Jesus isn't looking you in the eye? I think we can all relate to Peter in this moment. The good news is that it gets better. But I think that we can all relate to this idea of letting Jesus down, of betraying him and feeling what Peter must have felt when God looked at him and he went away and he wept bitterly. Which, by the way, when you're confronted with your sin, that's the appropriate response to go away and to weep bitterly. That's a good and right response. And I don't believe that God would steal that response from Peter. I don't think that God would go to him and say, hey, you don't need to do that. I think that's the good and right response when we realize who we are. But he goes away and he weeps bitterly. And then we pick up this story in John chapter 21. In John chapter 21, Jesus has died, he's resurrected, he's appeared to the disciples a couple of times, and then in John chapter 21, he appears to them while they're fishing. And it's interesting to me that they're fishing. Because if you think back, my Bible scholars in the room, you know the answer to this. At the beginning of Jesus' ministry, when he's calling the disciples, and he goes to this guy named Simon, son of John, and he renames him Peter, and he says, come and be my disciple. What was Peter doing? He was fishing. For three years while he followed Jesus, what did he not do anymore? Fish. Why? He had a new job. His new job was to follow Jesus. His new job was to be in ministry. His new job was to do what Jesus did, to go around telling people about Jesus, to cast out demons and to perform miracles and to teach the people of Israel about the Messiah that was now here. That was his new job. And so for three years, he hadn't done his old job. He walked away from that because that wasn't him anymore. But after Jesus dies and Peter is walking around with this shame because he let his Jesus down, what does he do? He goes back to his old job. He disqualifies himself. Peter should have been leading the church. Peter should have been gathering the disciples together and saying, hey, this isn't over. Jesus has risen from the dead. We need to continue to serve him. We need to continue to build his kingdom. We have a purpose. We're not done, guys. But instead, what does he do? He gets back in the boat. What I want us to see is that Peter allowed his shame to shrink his vision of what Jesus wanted him to do. He allowed his shame, he allowed what he had done and how badly he felt for it to shrink his vision about what Jesus wanted him to do. Jesus had purposed him and prepared him and groomed him to lead his church. It's what Jesus wanted him to do. It's why he was working with him for three years, why he was putting up with all of his Peter-isms so that he could lead the church. And Peter, because he felt bad, because he felt shame, he walked away from that. He disqualified himself, which in all honesty is the exact same thing that we would do. Would you look at Peter after he betrayed Jesus at the height of his need and go, yep, you're still the guy. You should still lead the church. Would you still want that guy to be in charge of everybody? Would you still want that guy leading the council of the disciples like he is in Acts along with James? Is that what you would still want? Wouldn't you think that Peter would need to enter into some sort of probationary period? Okay, you're good, Peter, but we're just going to keep our eye on you for a minute. Wouldn't you do what Peter did? Wouldn't you step away and kind of slink away quietly and be like, I'm so sorry that I messed up. I understand. I don't even expect you to reinstate me anymore. I'm just going to fish and I'm going to love on you the best I can. Wouldn't you expect that of Peter? Doesn't that seem like the fair human reaction? Don't we do that to ourselves? When we mess up and we know who we are, we know where we come from and we know the we bring into every room, and we know the things that are hiding in the corners and the shadows of our life. When we know those things, don't we do what Peter did and disqualify ourselves? Don't we allow our shame to shrink our vision for who we are and what God created us to do? Can I just tell you that I think the Bible teaches that every one of you who are believers were created, and the non-believers too, we're just waiting for you to get on board. You were created with a purpose and with a set of gifts, with the sole intention of building God's church. With the sole intention of going to heaven one day and on your way there bringing as many people with you as you possibly can. That's the only reason you're alive. It's the only reason you walk on the face of the earth. The Christian life is a progressive revelation of just how true that is. Hopefully you realize now it's more true than you did five years ago and hopefully more than 10 years ago. The only reason you're here, the only reason that Jesus doesn't snatch you into heaven the instant you are saved is to leave you here so that you can bring as many people with you as possible on the way. And I believe that God has imbued each of you with a set of gifts. I believe that God has uniquely prepared you in your life through the circumstances that you have walked through to be effective at reaching other people. And I believe that God has a big vision and a big plan for how he wants to use you in his kingdom. I believe those of you who have jobs that you are the pastors of those teams. That God has put you there to be a light in the dark places, to encourage the other light that is there and to cast light on those who might not know him yet. That simply by watching you, they may give glory to the Father who is in heaven. Those verses are all over scripture. But what do we do? We know our past. We know who we are. And so we allow our shame to shrink our vision of who Jesus created us to be. We excuse those things away. If I said that, I would never be believed. They're going to think I'm a hypocrite. Maybe we want to start a devotional with our kids at the house. Maybe we just want to start exposing our children to Scripture in the home, but then we have that thought, yeah, buddy, but you don't even read the Bible every day on your own, you hypocrite. Well, start then, and then start the Bible study, man. God has these things that I believe He wants us to do, that He's purposed us to do, but we back off of them because of our shame, because we know who we are. And then we just exist in these little holes. God, I'm not going to do that thing. I'm just going to be a fisherman. I'm just going to work in sales. I'm just going to work in accounting. I'm just going to have my job. I'm just going to do my thing. I'm going to go to church and be a good Christian. But that work that you have to do in the kingdom, that's for other people who haven't messed up. And listen, if that's true, if the only people who get to do ministry and get used in God's kingdom are those who have never let Jesus down, then the church would be run by four-year-olds, man. We've got just a slight upgrade here. But that's what we do. We allow our shame and how we feel about ourselves to shrink our vision about what God wants us to do, which is why Jesus's response to Peter is so amazing. Look at what Jesus says in John chapter 21. I'm going to read you the whole conversation and then we'll talk about it a little bit. Jesus had shown up. They were fishing out on the Sea of Galilee. And that's louder than normal. They were fishing out on the Sea of Galilee. They had been out all night. They hadn't caught anything, right? And then Jesus appears on the shore after they bring the nets in. Still not catching anything. And they don't know it's Jesus. It's just some dude. And he's like, hey, cast your nets on the other side of the boat, which is ridiculous. It's almost like making fun of them. The boat's like 12 feet wide. It's not going to make a difference when they put them on the other side of the boat. But for whatever reason, they listen to the guy, they do it, and then they catch more fish than they've ever caught in their life. 30 years later, 30-plus years later, old man John still remembers that they caught exactly 153 fish that day. That wasn't a big deal to John. They pull in the fish, they go in, they have breakfast together, and then Jesus sidles up to Peter for a conversation. This is the first one-on-one conversation that they have had since Peter's betrayal. And let me just ask you before we read the conversation, what would you expect Jesus to say in that moment? What would you expect the conversation to be? Put yourself in Peter's shoes. You did that to Jesus. You've betrayed him. Put yourself in your own shoes. Take yourself to the place where you feel like you've let Jesus down the most. And right after letting him down for however many upteenth times you've done it, he comes up to you. He sidles up next to you and he puts his arm around you and you and him have a conversation. What do you expect him to say? I would expect him to go to Peter. I would expect him to come to me and say, hey, are you sorry? Right? Jesus is good. He's gracious. I don't think that we would expect Jesus to just come down hard on us. We don't know that in his character. But I think we would expect him to put his arm around us and look at Peter and go, hey, Peter, are you sorry for what you did? Isn't this what we do with our children? When Lily messes up, I've got a three-year-old daughter named Lily, when she messes up, which is more frequently lately because she's three, and apparently that's what three-year-olds do. And she hollers and she gets mad. What do I do? I pick her up and I hold her right here. I calm her down. And I say, Lily, are you sorry? And she says, yes, Daddy. I go, okay. And I put her down. I say, go tell your mom you're sorry. We forgive you. Isn't that what we do? Isn't that what we would expect Jesus to do to us? Hey, are you sorry? And then we would expect to go, yeah, I'm sorry. And we would expect to hear him say to Peter, okay, you're forgiven. Because he's Jesus and that's what he does, right? You're forgiven. That's what we would expect. But look at what happens. Verse 15, when they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, Simon, son of John, do you love me more than these? Do you love me more than these fish? I see you've gone back to fishing. That's an interesting choice. I didn't know that you had a new career now. Do you love me more than these fish? Do you love me more than what you're doing? Interesting question. He said to him, yes, Lord, you know I love you. He said to him, feed my lambs. He said to him a second time, Simon, son of John, do you love me? He said to him, yes, Lord, you know that I love you. He said to him, tend my sheep. Verse 17, he said to him the third time, Simon, son of John, do you love me? Peter was grieved because he said to him the third time, do you love me? And he said to somebody put it, you done boogered up, son. He messed up bad. He felt terrible. And he walked away from what God called him to because he felt like he had disqualified himself for messing up. And Jesus goes and he finds him. And we would expect Jesus to say, Peter, are you sorry? That's not what he says. He says, Peter, do you love me? Do I still have your heart or has this sin taken it from me? Do you love me? He says, yes, of course I love you. He says, good. Feed my sheep. This is a remarkable statement. Because in John 10, Jesus paints himself as the good shepherd. And he says that the sheep are his flock or the church or people who believe in him. His sheep are the Christians. And so the shepherd looks after the Christians. And so what he's saying is, Peter, for three years you watched me do ministry. You watched me tend to my sheep. And I told you that you are Peter and on this rock I will build my church. I told you that one day I won't be here. When I'mores you. He doesn't just forgive Peter. He doesn't say, are you sorry? He says, do you love me? I know you're sorry. Because if you love me, then of course you're sorry. And then we would expect him to say, okay, you're forgiven, but sit over here in this probationary period. I'll keep an eye on you for a couple years and see if we can trust you again. That's not what he does. You're forgiven. You're restored. Go and do the thing I created you to do. Go and be the person I created you to be. He says, Peter, you may have disqualified yourself. You may have shrunken back from my plans for you, but I have not. I still have plans for you. I still want you to do these things. You are reinstated. You are restored. And he does it three times. I love the symmetry of those statements. How many times did Jesus deny Peter? Three. How many times did Jesus ask Peter if he loved him? Three. It's like he's saying, Peter, without even saying the words, Peter, do you love me? Yes, Lord, you know that I love you. You're forgiven. Go and work. Peter, do you love me? Yes, Lord, you know I love you. Then you're forgiven. Go and be who I created you to be. Peter, do you love me? Yes, Lord, you know that I love you. Okay, good, because that's three times that you said that. It's three times I've forgiven you. You can say it as many more times as you want to. I'll forgive you and restore you all those times. Now go and be who I created you to be. And I believe that he says the same thing to us this morning. I believe that he asks us the same question. Do you love Jesus? Grace, do you love Jesus? However mired in sin you might be, however much shame you might bring into the room, whatever might have happened in the past, whatever habits you bring, however many times you've made a commitment that you didn't keep, listen, put all that aside and let's just ask you grace. Do you love Jesus? Then go and be who he created you to be. Go and do the thing he purposed you to do. Say, but Jesus, I've done this and this and this. I'm not qualified. I used to be an addict. I used to do this thing. I'm mired in this right now. And Jesus says, listen, listen, listen, I'm not worried about that. Do you love me? Because if you love me, it means you're sorry. And if you've shrunk away, it means that you feel shame. And Jesus says, go and be the person that I created you to be. Go and do the thing that I intended for you to do. Quit disqualifying yourself. Quit feeling the shame that is not from me. And just answer the question, do you love me? Then go and do the thing that I purposed you to do. Go and feed his sheep. Go and build his church. Go and use the gifts that he's imbued you with. Go live out the reason that he leaves you here. Go and run your race. What I want you to understand this morning is Jesus is far more concerned with what he wants you to do than what you have done. He's already taken care of what you have done. He's removed that from you as far as the east is from the west. Because of that removal, you are free and have the freedom to operate in his love. And if you love him in return, then go and do the thing that he created you to do. Go and be who he created you to be. And that's where I would leave us at the end of the series in John with that simple question. After all the 12 weeks, after everything that we've experienced, after all that we've seen of Jesus, after what we know of him and how he loved us. Do you love him? Does he have your heart? If he does, grace. Go be who he created you to be. You're not just forgiven, you're restored. Let's pray. Father, we sure do love you. You sure are good to us. God, we can't fathom this idea that you would not just forgive us, but that you would restore us. Lord, if there are folks in here who walked into the room carrying a little bit of shame, God, if we are certain that if we could see you face to face, the first thing you would express in us is disappointment. God, I pray that you would take that from us today. That we would see that we are loved, that you care about us, that we would identify with Peter, not just in his betrayal, but in his restoration, that we would feel your arms around us, that we would simply respond to that question of, do we love you? Give us the faith to believe that you forgive us. Give us the eyes to see ourselves as you do. And give us the courage and the strength to go live out and be the people that you created us to be and do great things to the folks here at Grace. It's in your son's name we pray all of these things. Amen.

Well, good morning. Happy Easter to you. My name is Nate. I'm the lead pastor here. It's great to see everybody in their bright Easter colors. My wife picked this shirt out for me. She told me that she was going to get the dry cleaning done because there was that pretty Easter colored shirt in the dry cleaning to be done. And I said, oh, which one was that? And she described it by saying, oh, it's the nice one that you got a couple of years ago. It was too big for you then. I think it'll fit you now. And as I buttoned it up this morning, I thought, dang it, if she's not right. So here I am. Listen, this is the 11th part of our series in John. We've been moving through John together. We've been timing it up to arrive at this sermon on this Sunday because this is Easter, man. This is the best day of the year. It really is. This is my favorite day of the year. This is the day where Jesus wins everything for all of eternity. This is the day when the disciples find an empty tomb, and what it means is that Jesus conquered death, and what it means is that we have a way to be reconciled with our Creator God for all of eternity. It is the victory of victories. It is absolutely, as Christians, what we claim, what we stake our hope on, and what we hold fast to no matter what. And Easter celebrates that day. So it is like the Super Bowl of Sundays to be able to preach to you on Easter. This is my third Easter that I've gotten to spend with you at Grace. And back in the fall, I knew that we were going to be going through John in the spring. And so I was reading through John in part in preparation for this series. And I arrived at a story in John chapter 20 about doubting Thomas. Some of you probably know the story. Thomas was a disciple of Jesus who, when he heard that Jesus had resurrected from the dead, he said, I don't really believe that. And then Jesus appears to him and he gives Thomas the proof that he needs to show him that he's actually Jesus and that he's actually risen from the dead. And I thought, man, what a great thing to be able to share on Easter how Jesus responds in the face of our doubts. And so that's what we prepared for, and that's what I prepared for, and that's what I had in mind as we approached Easter, and we mapped out the series, and I knew what all 12 weeks were going to be. And a couple of weeks ago, we made a video, and we showed it in here, and we said, hey, on Easter Sunday, Nate's going to preach about Doubting Thomas and how Jesus responds in the face of our doubts, and it's going to be great, and you should invite people. And that's been the plan. We even, we put it on Facebook and then Steve told me, Steve's our worship pastor, who they did great. Steve told me, hey, we boosted it on Facebook. I don't even know what that is. But I've been boosted on Facebook. I'm kind of a big deal now. I mean, some of you may even be here because we boosted it. And if you did, you're going to be bummed out because I'm not preaching what I told you I was going to preach. Last night at about 10.30, I'm not making this up, I saw a tweet of all things, and I knew that I had to do a different message. My wife is out of town. She's at home with her family, and you'll find out why in a second. And I was going to bed. I grabbed Ruby, Jen's dog that I don't like, and I went to take Ruby outside as just the final hassle of the day to let her go to the bathroom. And while I'm outside, I grab my phone. And my buddy, who I used to work with, a guy named Heath, had tweeted this out. And I saw it in the morning, but I really just kind of passed over it. But for some reason, it was at the top of my Twitter feed, and I saw it. And this is what it says. It says, Holy Saturday, silence, sadness, sorrow. At some point in our lives, we all go through a season of this day. Darkness surrounds us. Nothing is happening. Hope seems lost. Today is the best reminder that the silence of God does not equal the absence of God. Sunday's coming. And as I read that and reflected on what's going on in my own life, I knew that I could not trot out here this morning and preach to you about how Jesus responds to our doubts. Which is a shame because I had a nice alliterated point at the end. It was very pastory. It said, in the face of our doubts, Jesus responds with patience, pursuit, and provision. And I was really happy about that. Isn't that fancy? But I knew as I read that, I can't, on Easter, that because my life feels like a Saturday right now. At Grace, we're real. We're authentic. We're honest. I feel like it's part of our secret sauce. I feel like it's what makes us us. And as a pastor, it's what makes me me, that we tell the truth and we go from our gut. And I felt like to preach what I had planned to preach would be dishonest with you this morning because my life feels a little bit like a Saturday and I need Easter this year. I don't know if you've ever thought about the disciples' perspective on Saturday, but we've been going through Holy Week. And in Holy Week, Jesus on Palm Sunday enters into Jerusalem and sets in motion some mechanisms that are going to ultimately lead to his crucifixion. And he knows to his resurrection the following Sunday. And each day during that week over history has been given a name like Ash Wednesday or Maundy Thursday or Good Friday. And Saturday is called Holy Saturday. And I don't know if you've ever thought about Saturday from the perspective of the disciples. But the disciples were men who had walked with Jesus every day. They woke up every morning with him. They listened to him. They followed him. They loved him. They left their jobs for him. They left their lives for him. They put everything on hold for Jesus. The Bible tells us that Jesus says that foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head. So they followed Jesus even though they were basically couch surfing for three years because they believed so much in what he was doing. And over the course of those three years, they came to love that man and respect that man and want to mimic and emulate that man. And they had high hopes for that man. And on Friday, it all came crashing down. On Friday, they watched that man put up on the cross and get crucified. And we talked about that last week. They watched their hopes and dreams die on that cross. And I imagine on Friday, though there was sadness, there was also shock, not really knowing what to do, trying to process what had happened. But on Saturday, the disciples are sitting in a room with the door locked because they're fearful of the authorities that they're going to come in and get them and arrest them. And so they're sitting there with the door locked in sorrow and in silence, not knowing what to do. And it feels very much like their God let them down. It feels very much like God is not present. We had hoped in him, we had believed in him, and now he's dead and we don't know what to do. And they look to each other for hope and there was none there. And what the disciples don't know is what we know is that the next day they're going to find an empty tomb and that Sunday is coming. But on Saturday, they didn't know that there was hope for Sunday. On Saturday, it's just death. And on Saturday, death wins. And on Saturday, evil wins and despair wins and sorrow wins on Saturday. Because that's where they are. And that's what they know. And Saturday is sorrowful. It's solemn. And it's silent. And as I thought about that, and thought about how much my life feels like Saturday right now, and thought about how much I need Easter right now, I thought I can in good conscience roll out there and talk about doubts tomorrow morning. My life feels like Saturday right now because three weeks ago, they found a mass on my father-in-law's pancreas. My father-in-law is a man named John. I love John a lot. I have a deep and abiding respect for John. I've said this to some people and I mean it. He has, to me, character that looks more similar to Jesus than anybody I've ever met. There are times in my life when I don't know what to do, and I think, I wonder what John would do. And I try to emulate that. Jen loves her daddy very much. They're very close. Lily calls him Papa. That's what I called my Papa. And so it's been a tough three weeks. Three weeks ago, they found a mass, and then it's just a series of appointments and different things, and you don't get the answers that you want. If you've walked through it before, you know it's painfully slow. And then yesterday, on Saturday, we find out that it's stage three. The Internet doesn't have a lot of good things to say about people with stage three pancreatic cancer. And so it's sad, and it's hard, and we're hopeful. On Monday morning, he meets with one of the best pancreatic surgeons in the world who has devoted his whole life to eradicating cancer from the pancreas. If anybody can help him, it's this guy. And so we hope in that, and we're happy about that. And I was on the phone with his wife, Terry, yesterday, telling her, listen, we don't know anything for sure yet, so we cling to hope. But it's hard. And I'm texting with Jen yesterday because she's down there with her family. How you doing? How's it going? And she just says, it's really hard. My daddy's really hurt. He's not really himself. He doesn't have any energy. And for three weeks, we've been doing a lot of praying, but we don't feel a lot of answers. And so my life feels like a Saturday. God, where are you on this one? He's a good man. It doesn't feel like it's the time. And here's the thing. You have your Saturdays too. You've walked through some Saturdays, haven't you? You've walked through some times in your life that were hard, where it felt dark, where you looked around and you said, where's Jesus here? And you didn't know where the hope was going to come from. You've sat in some Saturdays. Some of you are in them right now. And Saturdays don't all look like loss. I know since I've been here for two years, I've walked with some people. I've watched some people in the church walk through Saturdays. We've walked through the stories of miscarriages together. That's a Saturday. That Saturday's happened in my life before. There are people here who have lost spouses far too soon and walked through that Saturday. One of our very special partners lost his 58-year-old brother a couple of weeks ago out of nowhere. That's a Saturday. Our old pastor lost his son this year. That's a Saturday. Those are Saturdays. And they come in other ways too. I had breakfast with somebody on Monday of this week. And he said, man, my life has just been really hard since about December. I really need to hear from God and I can't. I don't know where he is and I don't know what's going on and I don't know how this is going to get better. It's kind of hard to cling to hope right now. And I wish that I'd had my mind wrapped around this sermon when I met with him because I could have just said, dude, it's Saturday. It's Saturday. And sometimes it's sin that brings it on, right? I was prepared. Sometimes it's not just things that happen around us. Sometimes we bring on our own Saturday, if we're honest. Sometimes our life feels so dark because of the things that we've allowed into it, because of the addictions that we walk with, because of the private shames that we hold close to us, because of the things in our life that are in the dark corners of our life that we don't want to shed light on, that feel like they're owning us and feel like they're eating our lunch. And what we really feel like is we're hopeless in this situation. And I see the freedom that other people walk in, but I don't think I'll ever walk in that. I don't think I'll ever be a whole person. I don't think I'll ever experience the happiness and the freedom that the Bible talks about because I don't believe if you were to ask me, can I overcome this sin, you would say, I don't think so. That's a Saturday. And so last night, at about 1045, I realized, I got to talk about Saturdays, man. Because here's the thing. The disciples had a Saturday too. And they got up on Sunday and they went to the tomb. Actually, it was Mary. And she was expecting to go in and find the corpse and dress the corpse of Jesus with some perfumes and some oil and maybe pray over it. And she found an empty tomb there. Jesus wasn't there. But there was an angel there who looks at her and says one of the greatest lines in the Bible. Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here, for he is risen. What are you doing here, Mary? Jesus isn't here. He's alive. And she rushes back and she finds the disciples locked in that room in sorrow and silence. And she tells them and they run to the tomb to see it for themselves. Peter and John run out there. And in John's account, he makes sure to tell you, we started out neck and neck, but I dusted that old man. I beat him to the tomb. I had plenty of time to look around and get my bearings. And when they get there, they find that the tomb is empty and that Jesus has conquered death. And that's Sunday. And they realized for all of eternity, Jesus has taken the sting out of death. Jesus has given us eternal life. Jesus has beaten all the things that would seek to take us down. It's why Paul can write in Corinthians, why he can quote the Old Testament and say, oh death, where is your sting? Where are your shackles? You have no power over us anymore, death, because Jesus rose on Sunday. Because on Sunday, the tomb was empty. Because Jesus overcame it and gave us victory and gave us hope. A hope that we can cling to. A hope that Paul says in Romans 5 will not put us to shame. Jesus won eternal victory on Sunday. And the sadness that was Saturday became the joy of Sunday because Jesus has conquered the grave and conquered hell and conquered sin and death and he's delivered that victory to you for all of eternity. All you have to do is believe that he did it. And then death can't touch us anymore. And then sorrow can't touch us anymore. And I knew that I had to preach about this and I knew that I had to tell you this story and I knew that I had to tell you about Saturday going into Sunday because here's what Sunday means. You understand? Here's what Easter means. Easter reminds us every year that Jesus always comes through. He always comes through. Without Easter, the internet tells me and my family that we have a 12% chance at happiness. Easter says, I've already beaten it. You've got 100% chance of joy. Without Easter, there's no hope. But Easter tells us that Jesus always comes through, that he never fails and that he never lets us down. And here's what I know. Because of Easter, because that tomb was empty, and because Jesus conquered death and delivered eternal life to all of us, including John, here's what I know, that because of Easter, he's going to come through for John too. It may be in the form of giving him some more years. He may get to watch Lily grow up a little bit longer. It may be in the form of taking him to heaven where he will wait, but make no mistake about it, John's going to hold Lily some more. And he's going to hug Terry some more. That's the victory of Easter. That's what today means. And if you're on a Saturday, today is a reminder that Jesus always comes through. Jesus always wins. And even if you can't see how he's going to come through, I will just tell you that he will. Either in this life or the next, he's going to come through. Either now or in eternity, you place your faith in him and he's going to come through. And now I don't have a 12% chance of happiness. I have a 100% chance at joy. And so does Jen, and so does Terry, and so does her sister Lauren. Because 2,000 years ago, Jesus beat cancer. And he beat sadness, and he beat tragedy, and he beat heartache, and he beat your Saturday too. That's what Easter is. Last night, when I decided I was going to be the least prepared pastor on Easter Sunday in America, I made a pot of coffee because I was tired. And I went outside and was just thinking and drinking the coffee. And I looked up and it was cloudy, but on the other side of some clouds I could tell the moon was there. And I knew that on the other side of those clouds was the light of the moon. And I kept my eye on it, and wouldn't you know it, in a couple of minutes the clouds parted, and it was a full moon, and it was bright. And it was like this little reminder from God. It's Saturday now, and it's dark, But that's my sun shining on that moon. And in the morning, it's going to be bright. Because in the morning, it's Easter. In the morning, it's Sunday. And on Sunday, we're reminded that I always win. And it may feel like night in our lives sometimes. We may feel the darkness of Saturday in our lives sometimes. If you do, look to that moon that's reflecting the light that God created and know that whether we know it or not, whether we understand it or not, in a way that we might not be able to predict, that Sunday is coming and the sun will shine again. And 2,000 years ago, Jesus won a victory for us over all the things that would seek to darken our days. And that's what we celebrate on Easter. Pope John Paul said, we do not give way to despair. We are the Easter people. And hallelujah is our song. So no matter how dark it gets, Christians, we sing because we know that Sunday is coming. No matter how silent God seems, Christians, we listen because we know that God will speak. No matter how sad we are on Saturday, Christians, we know that Sunday is coming and Jesus always comes through. And that's why Easter is the greatest day of the year, because it reminds us that Jesus has come through for us in more ways than we can possibly imagine. So I'm gonna pray for you. And my prayer is that you have a good Easter. And my prayer is that if you're in a Saturday, that you will know that because of Easter, you can know that Sunday is coming and Jesus is gonna come through for you too. Let's pray. Father, you're good. You're good to us. More than we deserve, more generously than we deserve, you love us in ways that we don't deserve. You are good. We thank you so much for Easter. We thank you for what it means and for what it represents, for the hope that you won when you conquered sin and death, when you came roaring like a lion out of there, giving us hope for all of eternity. Father, I pray that those of us who feel like we are in a Saturday would take solace in Easter, that we would cling to the hope of Sunday, that we would cling to the hope of you. Let us believe, God, that you've won this victory already, that it's yours. Let us celebrate Easter in the hope that it brings well. Let us reflect on you as we do it. Be with those who are sorrowful, God. Let them hold on just a little longer until your light shines. We thank you for Easter. In Jesus' name, amen.

Good morning, my name is Nate. I'm one of the pastors here. Thanks for being here at the early service. As Kyle said, this is the ninth part of our series moving through the book of John. I've been encouraging you every week to grab a reading plan. They're on the information table on the way out in the lobby. We want you reading along, encountering the Savior along with us. We don't want your only perspective on John to be for me and what I say on Sunday morning, but you encounter him with your heart and your intellect as well. This week we arrive at John chapter 17, which I think is one of the most intimate and poignant and important passages in the Bible. It is the longest recorded prayer of Jesus. And so I think just if that's all I would say about it, that it's the longest recorded prayer that we have of Jesus, we should want to lean into it and hear it, right? We should want to listen because this is our Savior and he prayed for us. And anytime he prays, we should want to lean in and go, how does he pray? What does he say? Like, I want to do it like he does it. And so we get the longest example that we have in John chapter 17. Before we dive into it, I want to give us a little context and background for when he's praying this and at the end of what he said and why he's praying it. So if you have a Bible, you can turn to John 17. If you don't, there's one in the seat back in front of you. And you can turn, it's the fourth book in the New Testament, Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John, John chapter 17. And we're going to be looking really at the whole chapter, but specifically at verses 20 through 24 this morning. So John 17 comes at the end of what's referred to by scholars as the farewell discourse. So if you've been paying attention in the book of John, we kind of move through the life of Jesus, right? And so the first, he's been ministering now for three years. He's had the disciples for three years, and he's just been moving through ministry and kind of just dropping in at spots and just giving highlights for each year or different things, right? But then time slows down towards the end when Jesus enters into Jerusalem for what we know as Passion Week. And he is in Jerusalem about to be crucified. The wheels have been set in motion for him to be arrested and tried and crucified and then resurrected, which we celebrate on Easter. So all of that stuff has been put in motion and the Gospel of John slows time way down and focuses a big portion of what he writes on just that week, and then a big portion of that week on just the last night that they're together. So they're around eating. They're eating a meal. Jesus looks at Judas, the one who is going to betray him, and he sends him off. He says, what you're about to do, go and do it quickly. And then he's left with just the 11 faithful disciples in this room together, this really intimate moment after three years of laboring together every day. And listen, his relationship with his disciples is the closest thing that we could experience to having a relationship with children or something like that. They spent every day together. When he called them to follow him, it wasn't like, could you follow me Monday through Friday? Actually, we do 410s here, so just Monday through Thursday. It's every day that you wake up and you talk to him. You wake up and you pray with him. You wake up and you do ministry with him, and you encounter the crowds that he encounters, and you watch him walk in faith every day for three years. They're incredibly, they have this incredibly tight and intimate relationship. And when it's just those 11 that are faithful to him because Judas went to betray him, he starts to teach them. And for a long time he teaches them. He starts to teach them in chapter 13. And we looked at this two weeks ago with the new commandment. He says, this new commandment I give you, that you should love one another as I love you. And then from that new commandment, he launches into 14, 15, 16, those three chapters of teaching. It's the most longest teachings that we have from Jesus. If you have a red letter Bible, and most of you do, and you flip through chapters 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, you'll see that they're all read. And this is one night that Jesus is saying all of these things in one room. And so we looked at one of those things last week in John 15, the idea of abiding in him, obeying him, and bearing fruit. And so then he wraps it up with this prayer. And it says at the beginning, when Jesus had spoken these words, so all the previous chapters from 13 until now, when Jesus had spoken these words, he lifted his eyes up to pray, which is just an interesting aside. There's other ways to pray besides bowing our head and closing our eyes. There's just different postures and different types of prayer, just as an aside. Before we look at Jesus' prayer, before we dive into it, I wanted us to kind of think about it a little bit so we can get a sense of what's being revealed here in this prayer. Those of you with children, I want you to imagine that they're adult children. Those of you without kids, just pretend that you have kids. And this is actually great because they've never sassed you and they're exactly what you want them to be. So just live in that moment. But if you have kids, I want you to imagine a situation where you're gonna part ways with them for a long, long time. Several years, probably decades, dozens of years. You're not gonna see them again. And it's gonna be a long time and you know it. And they know it too. And right before you part ways, you say, hey, let me pray for you. Okay? What would you pray? If you're gonna part ways with your kids for decades, not gonna see them again for a long, long time, you knew you were gonna see them again one day, but not for a while, and you said, hey, let me pray for you, what would you pray? It probably wouldn't be frivolous things, right? It probably wouldn't be like the test goes well tomorrow. It probably wouldn't even be that the interview's good. You would pray deep, meaningful things. You would pray long-term things. And whatever you prayed for them in that moment, I would submit to you is indicative of what your heart is for them. Whatever you pray in that moment is really revelatory of what you feel for them and what you want most for them, isn't it? It's going to show you, if I could listen, I would know what's most important to you for them for their life for the next several years, just by listening to your prayer. And so that's what's happening here. Jesus is about to part ways with the disciples. He's told them, I'm going to go prepare a place for you. Where I'm going, you cannot come for a while. We'll meet again, but it's going to be a minute. And Jesus knows that when he moves on from this moment, when he moves on from this week, he's going to see them a little bit. He's going to go to heaven. And then they've got their lives to live. And they've got the church to lead and the church to grow. We don't find out about Jesus. We never hear this story if the disciples don't do what they were trained to do. And he knows what they have ahead of them, that they have decades, that they're all going to die martyrs, deaths, that some of them are going to get married, that some of them are going to have kids. He knows what awaits them. And so he prays for them. And what I want to submit to you is that Jesus' prayer reveals what he most wants for us. Jesus' prayer reveals what he most wants for us. In the same way, if you were praying for your kids and they were leaving for a long time, you weren't going to see them again, what would you pray for them? That would reveal what you most wanted for your children. This prayer reveals what he most wants for the disciples, and you'll see it reveals what he most wants for us. The thing I find really remarkable about this prayer is that Jesus prays for you. In verse 20, he says this. He's just in the prayer. If you read the whole thing, and I would really encourage you to do that in one go. Read chapter 17 all the way through. He opens up praying about himself, and then he prays for the disciples. And then after he prays for the disciples, in verse 20, he says this, I do not ask for these only, but also for those who will believe in me through their word. Do you know who that is? That's you. If you are a Christian, if you call God your Father and Jesus your Savior, if you would say that you are a believer, then Jesus is praying for you here. He's saying, I'm not just praying for the disciples who are here around me, these 11, Father. I'm praying for anyone that comes to faith because of their word, which is everyone ever who has become a Christian. So he's praying for you. And even if you're here this morning and you're not a believer, which I'm so happy that you're here. Thanks for trusting us with your morning. And I will try to go quickly. If you're here this morning and you're not a believer, he prays for you too. So I want to know what he prays, right? What does he think is most important for us? When Jesus prayed for me 2,000 years ago to the Father, what did he pray? What did he pray for you? Well, here's what he prayed. Let's look at it. He prays, there's five verses that he prays for us, but this is really a good summary verse. This is the nuts and bolts of it us? What does he want for us? What does he pray for us? I think the answer to that is Jesus is praying for a twofold unity. Jesus prays for a twofold unity, two types of unity here. The first is unity with the Father. He says, let them be in us as we are together. Let them be one as we are one. And I love the heart of Jesus in this prayer, praying, God, let them experience what we have experienced. I think it kind of works like this. Like when you go out to eat, right? Let's say you go out to eat when there's five other people at the table and you win the order battle. It's a great feeling. Like all the plates come to the table and they set your plate down in front of you and everybody at the table goes, oh, that looks good. Should have gotten that. And like everybody knows you win. Like everybody now likes their dinner a little bit less because yours looks so good. That's a wonderful feeling, right? And if you're a good friend, now some of us are jerks and we go prison yard and like we cover it. We're like, sorry, you'll know for next time. But most of us, because we're really enjoying what we're eating, what do we do? We cut it and we hand it to people, right? You gotta try this and we put it on their plate or we pester people or like our grandmas when they love something a lot, they just force feed it to us. Like, if you say no to this, I'm just gonna put it directly in your mouth because they want you to try this because we want people to share in good experiences with us. Oh my gosh, this is so good. You have to taste this, right? That's why when we see something funny, when we hear something funny, Kyle lately, our student pastor, there's a comedian on Netflix named Nate Bergazzi. He is like an evangelist for this guy. He loves him and he's hilarious. And so he's telling everybody about him because Kyle likes laughing and he wants you to laugh too, right? He wants you to share in that experience. This is what we do. And this is what Jesus is doing. Jesus is saying, God, let them experience just a taste of what you and I have. Because I don't know if you've ever thought about this. We're gonna deep dive in philosophy a little bit. God exists as a triune God. I don't have time to explain it this morning, which is good because I can't. It's just kind of one of these mysteries of the faith that we believe in a trinity, God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. And they existed before time in eternity as a perfect unit, in perfect love and a perfect relationship, perfectly affirming, perfectly identifying, perfectly loving, perfectly accepting, never experiencing shame, never experiencing loneliness, never experiencing a lack of self-worth or a lack of identity or any sort of anxiety. They loved one another perfectly and they are perfect. And I don't know if you've ever thought about this, but the most loving thing for a perfect being to do is to make other beings so that they can experience his perfection. Does that make sense? So God created man so that we could get a taste of the relationship that he experiences God the Father, God the Son, and God the Spirit. He created us for the sole purpose of allowing us to experience relationship with him. He didn't do it because they needed it. It's not like God the Father and God the Son were looking at each other in heaven going, man, I am lonely. You know who would fix this? Tom Sartorius. That'd make it great. That's what we need. We need more Tom. This place would be great. That's not what he said. I want some company. I want a different perspective. Let's make people. That's not what they did. They said, this is so perfect that the best possible thing to do is to create people to experience in this relationship with us. The whole point of creation, the whole point of humans existing, is so that one day we can be reunited with God and experience the relationship that he designed us for. It's what our souls yearn for. It's what every bit of clawing for happiness is clawing towards. It's back to that relationship that the Father created just so that we could be intimate and united with him. It's the unity that Jesus is praying for here. And Jesus is saying, this is so good, Father, what we have. This is so good and so right and so affirming. Let them experience it too. Let them be in us as we are in one another. Let them experience a all-affirming love, a love that covers over shame, a love that erases anxiety, a love that imbues us with purpose, a love that assigns us an identity. Let them experience that, God. Bring them to oneness with you is what he's praying for. So it's a good, heartfelt prayer. And then he says, let them be one as you and I are one. So the second type of unity he prays for is unity with one another. He prays for unity with one another, right? He prays that you and I would be one, that all Christians would be one and would be unified. And at first, at first it seems like he's trying to almost pray away like denominations in the church. Like he doesn't want us to be Methodists and Presbyterians and Baptists and Catholics and all that stuff. He doesn't want that. He wants us to be one homogenous, like-minded group that agrees on everything. At first, it seems like the prayer is somewhat ineffectual. If you prayed that 2,000 years ago, let them all be one. And then the church launches from that and becomes incredibly diverse. Like I have to drive, when I drive home, I live really close. I live like five minutes away. I live one song away. That's how far I live with no traffic. That's what I know. I get one song on the way to and from work. I pass three churches at least. I guarantee there are things in each of those churches that I wouldn't agree with. I guarantee they would come here and they would not agree with some things. I mean, they'd be wrong, but they wouldn't agree, right? And so it makes me wonder, like, is God, is that prayer that ineffectual? Are we so far off the mark that we're not unified in that way? But as I thought about the unity that Jesus is praying for, I think that that unity is really exemplified in Kyle and Steve. Kyle's our student pastor and Steve is our worship pastor. And they're buddies. They're genuine buddies. As if we needed proof of this, every Wednesday staff goes out for staff lunch. Don't worry, we pay for that ourselves. We don't charge it to the church. We go out for staff lunch and we rotate who gets to pick. When it's your week, you get to pick the restaurant. And so this week, we ate at Pieology over there in North Hills. It will shock you to know that our student pastor chose a pizza place. And so we go there and Steve and Kyle ordered separately. They didn't talk to each other about what they were gonna order, but they both ordered a buffalo chicken pizza, right? And so they sit down and Kyle leans over and he jokingly says, look at us, we're buffalo bros, which is just a dumb joke, which makes it funny. So now they're buffalo bros, right? Like that's the thing. And they really are buddies. Every now and again on Mondays, they go out to eat together. Then when they don't have any plans, they just go eat together and they talk and they hang out. A lot of times when I'm trying to do actual work, they sit in Kyle's office and they distract me by talking to one another. But they're like friends. And it amazes me that they are because they are very different people. Kyle's 25. He's single. He goes out late. He plays Ultimate Frisbee and is good at Fortnite. That's Kyle, right? Steve's 43. I mean, we just started working on a 401K for him. He's so near the end of his career. He's in a different season of life. He's got a kid. He's building a house. Steve's Jewish and grew up in Boston for a little bit, a single mom, and then a stepdad going to Hebrew school. Kyle grew up in the south in a quaint suburb of Atlanta with a dad who worked at a Southern Baptist church with parents who are still together. It's totally different existences. Steve's gone through the loss of a parent. Kyle has both of his parents. Kyle was an athlete in high school, played a ton of sports. Steve's a musician. They don't have those things in common. I think Steve played basketball a couple of times. I question that. Totally different. Kyle doesn't have musical skills. Their interests are different. Kyle recommended Nate Bergazzi to Steve. Steve didn't like him. Kyle took it personal. There is no reason that they should be friends. But they work on the same staff and they're unified by the same goal. They both live to see people get connected to Jesus. They both live to see people experience the unity with God that they have. They both live for the purpose of the gospel. So whether or not they agree on everything, whether or not they're similar in every way, the unifying power of the gospel and the purpose of that has brought them together because it's what they both care most deeply about is seeing themselves walk with Jesus and seeing you walk with Jesus. And so they've leveraged everything in their life around those goals. And so it unites us. This week, I had a guy from South Africa come up. I met him once for a week, six years ago. He's an African-American guy from South Africa who grew up in Ocean View, in the shantytowns there, in extreme poverty, totally different life experience with me. I've only spent a week with him. When he got here on Thursday, he got out of the car and gave me a hug and called me brother. What else but the gospel unifies people in that way? So I do not think that when Jesus is praying here, he's praying that we would be a homogenous group that agrees on everything all the time. I think that he is praying that we would be unified in our goal and in our heart to reach people with the power of the gospel. I think he is praying that we would be brought together by what means most to us. And on a church level, this means that we're not against other churches. This means that we support other churches. This means it doesn't matter if we agree with them on everything. What we agree with them on, the most important thing is they're trying to bring people into the kingdom and we're trying to bring people into the kingdom. People have asked me a bunch of times, Summit's building a big, huge building right around the corner. They're saying, you know, Summit's building this huge building. Are you worried about that? No, no. He's a better pastor than me anyways. Moving closer isn't going to prove it. He's already a better speaker than me. What's it matter? We're all building the kingdom. Who cares? Who cares where anybody goes to church? Just go where you're getting closer to the Father, where you have community. We're all on the same team. That's the unity that I think that Jesus is praying for. And he prays this, and you can see it in the kind of unity that he's praying for. He's praying this. He says at the end, look, at the end of 21, that they may all be one, just as you, Father, and me, and I in you, that they also may be in us so that, listen, so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I don't know if you've been paying attention in this series, but if you have, you will notice that this is why Jesus does everything. This is like, this prayer sums up the whole gospel of John. It sums up all of his teaching. It sums up everything. This idea, he wants us to be experienced unity with the Father, that all-fulfilling love of the Father, unity with one another in purpose, and the purpose is so that other people might believe in Jesus. It's what he says over and over and over again. In the very first week of the series, we said that the fundamental questions in life are, was Jesus real, and do I believe that he was who he says he was? And if we answer yes to those two questions, everything has to change. And Jesus keeps bringing us back himself to that question, do you believe in me? The way the gospel starts, John starts, Jesus is God. In the beginning was the Word, Word was with God, Word was God. Without him, nothing was made through him, all things were made. He sets him up as God, and we have to ask the question, do we believe that? The very first miracle that he does, turning water into wine. His mom says, hey, you should do that thing where you turn the water into wine. And Jesus says, it's not yet my time, woman, which is a really interesting verse to have in the Bible. But then he decides that he's going to do it anyways. Why does he do this miracle? Well, at the end, he tells us it's so that the disciples would believe that he was who he says he was. His motivation for the miracle was so that others would believe. We fast forward to maybe his greatest miracle in John 11 when he resurrects Lazarus from the dead. His best friend. He was told two days before his best friend died, hey, Lazarus is sick. You should come heal him. And he stays put for two days and lets his best friend die. And his two sisters, Lazarus' two sisters, Mary and Martha, he watches them get disappointed in such a deep way that when he meets back up with Mary, he weeps with her. He let them die. He let them hurt so he could resurrect them from the dead. And when he comes out, there's a prayer at the end of John 11, and he lifts his eyes up to God, and he says, God, I know. Father, I knew that you would do this, but I'm saying this now so that they might believe, you're following me for the wrong reasons. And they say, what are the right reasons? He says, you're laboring for temporary things. You should labor for eternal things. And they said, how do we do that? What do you tell them? Believe in the one that the Father has sent. Believe in me. Over and over and over again, believe in me. The new commandment that he gives in John 13, love one another as I have loved you. Why? So that others might believe in me. And then here in this prayer, God, I pray all these things for myself. I pray all these things for the disciples. I pray all these things for the church that will grow from the disciples. And I pray that that church will be unified with you and unified with one another. Why? So that they might believe in me. All through the Bible. All through the book of John. This is what Jesus cares about most. And then he prays this peculiar prayer. It's almost vain when we read it. It really kind of took me a minute to figure out why is Jesus praying this at the end of that. Verse 24, Father, I desire that they also whom you have given me, that's the church, may be through their word would see me in my glory, would see me as I am. Say, Father, they've only seen me as this weak and frail human. I pray that they would see me as God, that they would see me as divine, that they would see Jesus in his heavenly state in Revelation. Two or three different glimpses of him, and it's really magnificent. But why is Jesus praying this here? Let them see me as I really am. And as I thought about that, I realized something. Do you know where we experience perfect unity with the Father, what he prays for us? In heaven. Do you know where we experience perfect unity with one another? In heaven. Do you know what Jesus prays over and over again for the disciples in this passage? That God would preserve them. Preserve them for what? Heaven. Do you know where if other people believe because of our unity, because of our love, and because of his miracles, do you know where they go? Heaven. If we're going to ever see Jesus in his glory, do you know where we see him in his glory? Heaven. And so I really believe that what Jesus is praying here can be summed up like this. Father, let them experience heaven. That's what he's praying. If you read through everything here, if you read through John 17 and you want to know what's the heart of Jesus, what's he praying for us, what matters most to him, what he's praying is, Father, let them experience heaven. Let them experience eternity. What he's saying is if there is a perfect God who chose to create us so that we might share in an eternal relationship with him, what he's praying is, Father, bring about the whole purpose of all of creation. Let's go ahead and finish the job that we started all those years ago. Let's bring about the entire purpose why we're here and what we did to bring them to heaven with us that they might experience eternity and a perfect relationship with us and in a perfect relationship with one another. And if you read back through John through this lens, it amazed me as I looked at it this week, you will see that almost the only thing Jesus ever really cares about, it is guiding everything he says, all the miracles that he does, all the teachings that he offers, all the conversations that he has, all the places that he goes, and all of his timing. His primary and sometimes sole motivation is that you would be in heaven with him for eternity. That's his whole life. What matters most to Jesus? That you would be in heaven with him. What does Jesus care about more than anything else? That you would be in heaven with him. Why did Jesus teach all those people all the time? Why did he do all the miracles? Why did he train the disciples? Why did he pray for them? Why did he die on the cross? Why did he live his entire life? Why did he come here? So that you might be reconciled to him and spend eternity in heaven with him and with the Father and with the Spirit and with one another. It's all Jesus cares about is that you would one day go to heaven. And if that's what Jesus cares about most, just eternity, it makes me wonder, do we care about it as much as him? Or are we caught up in the temporary? If we cared about heaven as much as Jesus cared about heaven, we would have a lot different view of life and death. If we cared about heaven as much as Jesus cared about heaven, we would have a lot different view of our friends. We would have a lot different view of our children and of our loved ones. If we cared about heaven for other people as much as Jesus cared about heaven, we would have a lot different view of people who cut us off in traffic. We would have a lot different view of the person who checks out too many items in the self-checkout aisle in Harris Teeter. Right? If we cared about heaven as much as Jesus cared about heaven, if we were singularly focused on eternity as Jesus was on eternity, it would change our prayers. It would change our relationships. It would change our interaction. It would change our priorities. It would change everything. And what I see as I go through John is that this prayer is a capstone on all the teachings of Jesus throughout the whole book. And do you know what he really wants for you? Do you know what screams to me out of the book of John? Jesus wants to spend eternity with you. It's the whole reason he created you. It's the whole reason he came here. It's the whole reason he died. It's the whole reason he hung around for three years. It's the only reason that he doesn't snatch you to heaven the exact moment that you accept him because he wants you to be about the business of bringing other people with you. The only reason we are here is to go to heaven and bring as many people as we possibly can with us on the way. And when we believe that, and I'll be the first to confess that I don't all the time do, it changes everything. To me, that's the message from John, that Jesus wants to spend eternity with you. He wants it so badly that he's willing to experience the death of crucifixion to do it. And that's what we're gonna talk about next week. Let's pray. Father, we are so grateful for you. We are so grateful for your love. Grateful for your son. The way that he ministered to us and for us. The way that he fights for us. The way that his singular focus is to bring us into a relationship with you and him and the spirit that we might experience heaven, that we might experience eternity with him and with you. God, give us an ounce of the concern that Jesus has for the eternity. Give us a glimpse of what it's like to be eternally focused like he was. Give us an appreciation for the beauty of eternity with you. Give us an understanding that we really were designed to be with you and that we will only find purpose and identity and happiness and contentment when we are walking in the middle of your will and we are walking towards heaven. Give us a heart to bring as many people possible with us as we can. God, thanks for loving us in that way. In Jesus' name, amen.